Its coming to 3 works that im workin now. there seems to be some politics goin on tt i juz recently came to noe abt. n im beginning to feel like i wanan get out haha.i mean honestly i guez i have always considered this job like a pit stop of sorts. since its temporary. im hoping the ministry calls soon to update me on whether i get that lang analyst job.

like i mentioned once b4, its ironic but since i got a job, calls have been coming in to request me to go for interviews. speakin of which, tmr i have one at NTU as post of Management support officer. this one i applied for like in june or july lol. when i was rotting away at home, i got no calls 4 interviews. but im thankful nonetheless. hopefully with more choices, i will eventually pick one that is the most suitable for me. im also goin for a workshop this sat. its abt the job as Co-curricular prog exec. its like im juz grabbing any job opportunity haha.

but nw tt i suddenly think abt it, i dunno whether that means i did get the job as co-curricular prog exec or issit juz a workshop. hmm.

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Today started off on a gd note heh. wont elaborate wad it is but it had me grinning all to myself like a cheshire cat. But i controlled the impulse to tersengih kambing all the way cos i dun want ppl to tink i was crazy haha.

now thinkin abt it still makes me go aah...melts.

So counting today i have been working for 2 wks. hmm surprisingly time seems to travel pretty fast. Im really glad i got a job n can start earning some dough to add to my increasingly decreasing (paradox? haha) bank account. its less than $1000 now. *sob sob*

Anw did i mentioned abt hw my bus card was retained on my very 1st day of work? bleah. tt stupid bus driver juz had to confiscate my card. ok well technically it's my sister's card which i was using cos i was tryin to save on transport. so sue me for tryin to be frugal :p
yea n i guez it backfired when i got caught. when i called a wk later, which was a couple of days ago, Transitlink told me Sbs still havent gave the card to them. i was already mentally cursing the driver n conjuring up tots of him using the card for his own selfish purposes n me strangling him for being an ass. den a couple of days later, when i was gonna take the bus to my workplc, who did i saw but the driver himself. i gave him a dirty look n mayb cos of that he went to return my card haha.

Transitlink called n said i can take the card nw. only problem is that its operating hrs are Mons to Fris, 9-530. Which are of coz the times when im still working. so havent quite figured out hw to solve my way ard tt situation.

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Alrite for the umpteenth time i have changed my blog skin yet again haha. so wads new rite?

Anywaez, been workin for abt a wk and 4 days nw. so far im getting used to the early morning routine of waking up at the ungodly hr of 530am haha n den getting out of e hse by 7 to reach work by 830. since my workplc is so bloody far, i gotta drag my ass outta e hse abt 2 hrs earlier.

Workload's been alrite. nt a lot. still easing into office environment. surprisingly the hrs dun seem to go so slowly unlike when i was workin at Chomel where i will keep lookin at the watch every few mins n wondering when the hell i can go back haha. probably cos i was doing labour work then n it wasnt exactly my thing. Over here its like at home haha. cos all i do is be on the computer the whole day in between all the cutting n pasting of articles i gotta do for the archives of the organisation.

Apart from that, i have had opportunites to go to greener pastures shd the job offers come thru. so if i do, at least the workplc will be nearer hopefully. Not that i dun like my current job but it can be rather tiring having to travel all the way from bt panjang to marine parade every day. imagine the money spent on transport. sheesh.

anw yea im blogging from work heh. yea im such an exemplary employer arent i? :p

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A week has passed since i started on my new job. Not too bad, nt much of workload yet and my colleagues r nice n friendly. Only thing im nt particularly fond of are the long journey to n fro from home to work. Bloody 2 hrs sometimes. damn tiring by e time i reach home. its a given that i will sleep on the rides home. Been experimenting wif different modes of transportation to see which will allow me to go home e fastest. Found dat out yest when i took MRT home on e advice of a fren. Think im gonna do tt now altho im nt a fan of taking MRT. for e 1st time i reached home when it was still ard 7 pm haha. usually it will be 8 sth by e time i stepped into Bukit panjang.

Its ironic isnt it? when u already got a job and den calls for interviews come in. When ure still rotting at home, ure juz slackin ard wif no interviews, no nth. But im nt complaining. im glad for this temp job since i can earn money but if i get a more permanent job somewhere else wif a location nearer to my hse, it will of coz be way better.

Although it will be strange on my resume if i only work at my current plc a few wks. Oh well i will juz have to see how the interview wif ministry of home affairs go on Mon. it wont be an interview like e normal sense of e word. i'm actually gonna have to go thru a lie detector test of all things haha. i find e tot both exciting n a lil scary at e same time. i wonder wad kinda qns they gonna ask.

It took them so long to get back to me. Prob cos they've been calling up all the kter referees i put on my application forms tt time n interviewing them abt me. n since they have to do tt 4 all the other shortlisted candidates, it took a mth b4 i got any news.

actuali went for another interview at a recruitment firm on thur morning for this job. but the posn wont open till abt oct so i probably wont noe anyting more abt tt unless i do get shortlisted for e nx round. which im nt reali sure i will. haha. cos was i not onli late for e interview, but i also didnt bring along my certs n pic for e interview. very smart rite? come to interview without important documents. when the person ask 4 them, i was honstly surprised cos she didnt tell me but she said she did. lol. oh well. im so terribly blur sometimes.

anw juz wish me luck for e ministry interview. InsyaAllah i will pass tt lie detector test heh

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Anw Im soo glad i finally got a job! Heh. Yay. now i can start earnin money again. although i wont have e luxury to laze ard anymore but at least i'll be doing sth productive n gaining some experience in e process.

actuali initially i was a lil torn whether i shd accept it n den later who noes having the ministry call me up for tt 2nd interview. but for e time being, im accepting this current one cos i'd rather have a job than nothing at all. i cant slack ard at home forever. n i was hoping for a job b4 fasting mth starts so im thankful Allah answered my prayers. Alhamdulillah.

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It's such a beautiful day outside. White fluffy clouds against a backdrop of an expanse of azure sky. kinda reminds me of the opening scene of the Simpsons haha. u noe sometimes i imagine i can fly like Superman. wouldnt it be cool if u can flit n out of the clouds, like hide n seek? lol.

Been doing a bit of self-reflection lately n underwent some sort of self-revelations. Made me more aware of wad makes me tick and its kinda cool, knowing more abt urself. i mean its alrite to have fun n socialise but at times, u also need to sit down n do some self-examination. on ur own, without any interference or expectations of the ppl ard u, what society dictates u to do n all that.

find myself unwittingly giving out advice to ppl ard me haha. im sounding like a motivational speaker dont i? haha but it feels kinda good to motivate ppl n make them realize certain things they nvr tot of b4. when they go 'oooh i nvr tink that way b4' or when i ask them a qn that stumps them n made em say 'hmm u have a point there', it's nice to know that i made them see things from a different perspective n make them reflect abt their own life.

In other news, im still on my job hunt. the job i want is still elusive. im hoping to get interviews nx wk. im tryin to be optimistic but when that small bit of paranoia strikes, i begin to tink that mayb these ppl who im sendin out my resumes to dun get my emails. den i try to banish that silly tot n tell myself 2b patient. Cos i can only do my part n put in efforts in sending out resumes to prospective employers. i cant control whether they will call me up or not. so it's no use for me worrying. I juz have to pray for e best n hope for that break i need. InsyaAllah.

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You were born with potential.
You were born with goodness and trust.
You were born with ideals and dreams.
You were born with greatness.
You were born with wings.
You are not meant for crawling, so don't.
You have wings.
Learn to use them and fly.



- Rumi

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