Tuesday, June 27, 2006
LETTING GO (Author Unknown)
To "let go" does not mean to stop caring,it means I can't do it for someone else.
To "let go" is not to cut myself off,it's the realization I can't control another.
To "let go" is not to enable,but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To "let go" is to admit powerlessness,which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To "let go" is not to try to change or blame another,it's to make the most of myself.
To "let go" is not to care for,but to care about.
To "let go" is not to fix,but to be supportive.
To "let go" is not to judge,but to allow another to be a human being.
To "let go" is not to be in the middle arranging the outcomes,but to allow others to affect their
own destinies.
To "let go" is not to be protective,it's to permit another to face reality.
To "let go" is not to deny,but to accept.
To "let go" it not to nag, scold or argue,but instead to search out my own shortcomings, and correct them.
To "let go" is not to adjust everything to my desires but to take each day as it comes,and cherish myself in it.
To "let go" is not to criticize and regulate anybody but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To "let go" is not to regret the past,but to grow and live for the future.
To "let go" is to fear less,and love more.
[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 2:00 PM
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
These few days have been more exciting than the usual drab routine of stayin at home n rotting away haha.
Yesterday went to the Anugerah Skrin live telecast at MediaCorp. Last min Sooz called to say there's an extra tix. Yayness! so off i went for the 1st time to watch a live show in the studios. kinda fun soaking in the atmosphere n seeing ppl scream their head off n celeb-watching ppl like Khairudin Shaharom who is damn hot n jambu babes like Nurul Aini. The results were quite shocking for the guys side. Shah surprisingly didnt make it top 2. guez the gazillion females fans he has didnt pay enuf to get him thru. either that or they r too young to sms haha. or they took for granted he will get thru n didnt vote enuf.
Today me, sooz n sar were supposed to go to Escape n have fun yelling our lungs out on the rides. alas it was not to be as the weather was too unpredictable n the rides were closed. bleah. so sad that i travelled so far to the east n didnt get the chance to have fun. but all was not lost as we went to Changi Airport n had a gerls' bonding session hee.
Tmr gonna meet up wif syaz n kin pulak. been so long since i met them. gonna go to Mosi's cafe. wanna intro them to the nice sandwiches they have there. hope it wont be too packed though
[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 11:35 PM
Sunday, June 18, 2006
My hands stink.
Of Onions.
Bleah. So disgusting.
It's been awhile since i last had to cut onions. And juz now my dad had asked me to do that horrid task. okla its not as bad as it sounds.
But i realize after washing my hands twice wif soap n smelling them, they still reek of onion smell. Eurgh.
Ok pointless entry :p
[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 1:28 PM
Friday, June 16, 2006
Blog hopping punye blog hopping n i end up lookin at blogs of ppl who r recently married or recently got babies n i feel happy n tickled that these ppl seem to be having so much fun in their happily married lil world. sigh.
den i tink of getting married n having lil babies of my own too. haha yea rite biler seh tu. sedangkan bf pun tkde cam mane nk kawin n ade cute2 baby. bleah
But honestly i tink lookin at pixxies of adorable lil tykes i tink kick my maternal instinct into gear or sth. im onli 20 seh. how can i tink of having lil babies when i cant even reali take of myself yet?
Dah la lum ade keje. duit dlm bank pun makin kurang cos all output n no input. i hope i get a job real soon. although part of me is used to the mengganggur-ing lifestyle now, it gets tiring when i have to tell ppl im nt doing anyting now, juz wasting my life away gitu. feels so unproductive.
on the other hand, although yea it can get boring at home sometimes, im getting used to the routine. heck i tink im becoming like a housewife seh. juz the other day as i was washing the rice b4 putting inside the rice cooker, my bro was like eh u like a hsewife oredi. n i was indignant but ya i gotta admit i did feel like one.
Wad do i do whole day at home rite? watch tv, go online. den in the afternoon i check if there's rice left n if not, i cook rice. And some dishes to go along wif it. ok make that juz one dish n yea my attempts at cooking are nt exactly superb la but at least im nt so awkward in the kitchen like i was b4. im nt so geli anymore like dulu to handle 'dirty' stuff like korek the sink if got leftovers stuck n clogging the pipes, prevent the water from running/ flowing straight.
And since my mom is now working, im the one who gotta change my grandma's diapers in the morning n evening. Got over that geliness also. But there's no way i can become a nurse man. bluek.
Anw today went for graduation. initially almost didnt wanna go but heckla in the end i did. Snapped a lot of pixxies using other ppl's cameras. Felt a lil sad that almost everyone's parents came but mine didnt. not that i want them to. cos i myself didnt reali care abt graduation but still it felt a lil sad i went home alone gitu. haha emo mood. kejap je.
How did i feel abt graduation? not much reali. was yawning throughout most of it. nt cos i was bored per se. i was juz sleepy. usually after subuh, i juz crawl bek into bed n sleep but not today. gotta drag my ass go to skl. ala dorang letak 830 nk takutkan je. padahal dtg lambat like 9 pun ok. i wasnt early anw. kluar rumah at 820 haha.
den i tink of getting married n having lil babies of my own too. haha yea rite biler seh tu. sedangkan bf pun tkde cam mane nk kawin n ade cute2 baby. bleah
But honestly i tink lookin at pixxies of adorable lil tykes i tink kick my maternal instinct into gear or sth. im onli 20 seh. how can i tink of having lil babies when i cant even reali take of myself yet?
Dah la lum ade keje. duit dlm bank pun makin kurang cos all output n no input. i hope i get a job real soon. although part of me is used to the mengganggur-ing lifestyle now, it gets tiring when i have to tell ppl im nt doing anyting now, juz wasting my life away gitu. feels so unproductive.
on the other hand, although yea it can get boring at home sometimes, im getting used to the routine. heck i tink im becoming like a housewife seh. juz the other day as i was washing the rice b4 putting inside the rice cooker, my bro was like eh u like a hsewife oredi. n i was indignant but ya i gotta admit i did feel like one.
Wad do i do whole day at home rite? watch tv, go online. den in the afternoon i check if there's rice left n if not, i cook rice. And some dishes to go along wif it. ok make that juz one dish n yea my attempts at cooking are nt exactly superb la but at least im nt so awkward in the kitchen like i was b4. im nt so geli anymore like dulu to handle 'dirty' stuff like korek the sink if got leftovers stuck n clogging the pipes, prevent the water from running/ flowing straight.
And since my mom is now working, im the one who gotta change my grandma's diapers in the morning n evening. Got over that geliness also. But there's no way i can become a nurse man. bluek.
Anw today went for graduation. initially almost didnt wanna go but heckla in the end i did. Snapped a lot of pixxies using other ppl's cameras. Felt a lil sad that almost everyone's parents came but mine didnt. not that i want them to. cos i myself didnt reali care abt graduation but still it felt a lil sad i went home alone gitu. haha emo mood. kejap je.
How did i feel abt graduation? not much reali. was yawning throughout most of it. nt cos i was bored per se. i was juz sleepy. usually after subuh, i juz crawl bek into bed n sleep but not today. gotta drag my ass go to skl. ala dorang letak 830 nk takutkan je. padahal dtg lambat like 9 pun ok. i wasnt early anw. kluar rumah at 820 haha.
[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 12:00 AM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Ok Im gonna indulge being a typical gerl n all n gush abt hot soccer guys now being World Cup season n all haha. since i got nth better to do.
So gals, enjoy :p
Cristiano Ronaldo
Kaka
Harry Kewell
Fabio Cannavaro
Ilhan Mansiz
Tim Cahill
[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 1:47 PM
Love Song For No One
Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it
I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
Get here
Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one
I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?
Oh no way
I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?
I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
I'm so tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me
[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 12:14 AM
Friday, June 09, 2006
Tagged from sar's Lj
8 points to look out for in a lover
1. A good conversationalist ( I get bored easily so if i cant tok and have witty, teasing banter wif a a guy, he wont make much of an impact on me)
2. someone who can make me laugh (humour is always a turn-on)
3. someone who is cute (as long as he is yummy in my eyes, tts all that matters haha)
4. someone who can guide me especially in times when i feel lost n confused
5. trustworthy n honest (if i cant trust him, wads e point?)
6. someone who is not afraid to show me off to his frenz n family
7. someone who will go thru the ups n downs in life wif me
8. someone who can click wif my frenz n family
[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 12:23 PM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Ok Im so loving this song rite now that it's on replay mode since yesterday. It's an Indon song wif a mix of eng lyrics.
From an Indon movie called 'My Heart' wif the same song title. Sung by its leads, Irwansyah and Acha sth sth. dun quite noe her real name lol.
Anw dun quite noe wad issit that make me like this song so much. I dun relate to the lyrics. Too mushy 4 me. i tink its the tune. anw i guez if ure a sentimentalist, the words r reali sweet.
The video is on my blog so u can listen to it if u wanna.
[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 5:57 PM
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
BE CAREFUL WIF HER HEART. IT'S MORE FRAGILE THAN U TINK....
I tink i shd really get a job quick or I will go insane in this house. My grandma keeps making a whole lot of fuckin noise. If it's not crying every few damn minute, oh wait make that every few secs, she's shouting at the top of her lungs. It can make anyone go crazy. Most times i juz keep quiet n ignore the noise. But when i cant take it anymore, i juz shout at her to shut the hell up. I noe i sound like a real bitch but try being in my shoes. Everyone juz tells me to be patient. to hell wif patience. Im getting sick of it. She should juz go, u noe. juz go n leave us in peace. It will be better for everyone, including herself. She dun have to suffer anymore.
Yest nite was feeling like crap. A mix of tumultous emotions were rolling inside me. Thoughts were speeding thru my mind like bullets, none particularly positive. Cried myself to sleep. Stupid crappy feelings. Woke up tis morning though tinking eh was i a wreck yest. Somehow this morning things seemed better. Mayb cos its at night that u get attacked by negativity and pessimistic tots reign supreme.
On to other tings, there's all this hoo ha about the NUS Business Sch ad. Personally, i tink it sucks. My 1st reaction when i saw it was WTF?!.
Ok 1st of all, an angmoh from the US feeling ecstatic that she got a place in NUS. OH COME ON, THAT IS SO RIDICULOUS. It doesnt even seem to be in the realm of possibility. When there so many other better schs in their own country. Why on earth would they wanna come here? Ok i admit Nus has earn a reputation as an established skl but its not THAT established yet.
2ndly, the ending remark by the mom abt there being cute boys in NUS. HAHAHA. so laughable. seriously tts so hilarious. cute guys in uni? the odds are slim, slimmer than the pantyliners u see in those commercials. sad fact but most guys in uni r geeks. no offence to uni guys tho. :p
[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 11:49 AM
I'm feeling....wad am i feeling eh?
A lil restless. Bored. Jealous a bit. Bleahness.
Sometimes i wish i can do certain things but i noe i cant.
For various reasons. Limited freedom. Sense of responsibility.
Sometimes i wish i can let go of inhibitions n juz be free. but i cant. i will feel too guilty.
Wads the point of this entry i cant even fathom. haiz
[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 12:06 AM
