Interviews n more Interviews

Went for an interview juz now at Golden Mile Complex. I was lost actually. Alighted at Lavender Mrt n was wondering where e hell is Golden Mile. Walked n walked with the merciless sun beating its rays on me.Was sweating like hell. Obviously late for the interview but i tink they dun reali care la. Eh n u noe when i reached there den i realized im actually at a maid agency haha. In case u were wondering, i was there to apply 4 admin position. It went ok so tgk la if they gonna call me back. Although im nt sure if i do want the job but well i like to have my options open.

Anw juz now in the morning the editor of Teenage mag called me cos i applied for the editorial internship there. actually she said can come down 4 an interview today at Loyang of all places. The email did state its in the East. i juz didnt realized its SOOO in the east. So i asked if its ok if i come 4 e interview but may decide nt take the internship posn if im offered it. She told me to consider it 1st cos i'd only be wasting my time if i go all e way n wont want it anyway.

So juz now i was in a conundrum cos i cant decide if i want to take up the internship or not. haha but den aft chattin wif a couple of frenz n weighing the pros n cons, i was like eh wad am i worried abt seh? its not like im already offered the internship. i was juz supposed to go 4 an interview. but well i declined la cos in the end, practicality won over passion or interest in this case. Cos intern pay is obviously miniscule n the location isnt exactly favorable either. So sadly had to not take that editorial ting although i would want the experience n mayb get contacts in the industry.

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Having a headache rite now. Made worse cos i ran in the rain juz now. Went to bp plaza library n wad do u noe, when i got out of the building, it was raining cats n dogs n of coz I didnt bring my umbrella.

Didnt have any adult version panadol at home so ended up popping the pink lil kids one haha. Hope it works la.

Anw got an email from fms list asking if anyone's interested 2 become editorial intern. I want la but ting is its at the east n as interns, they prob wont pay much and its already stated in the email. But i want the experience n well i have always wanted 2b a journalist n this can get me contacts in the industry. Oh well i juz sent in the resume. i can juz decline if i change my mind later.

Anw here's an excerpt of my convo wif Sooz on MSN on wad else but love haha.

Where are my magic words, magic words says:
love, where art thou

F@2IzAh-U noe when U get bek 2gether wif ur ex, its pathetic. Its like havin a garage sale n buying bek ur own stuff says:
haha but eh wad if the love doesnt come in e form ur expect it to be?

Where are my magic words, magic words says:
then it may not be love?

Where are my magic words, magic words says:
i donno.. what r my expectations?

Where are my magic words, magic words says:
i expect love to make me a better person

Where are my magic words, magic words says:
n to accept the faults of others

Where are my magic words, magic words says:
n to nurture others to be a better person

I gotta admit i nvr reali tot of love that way but its true isnt it?
If this force called LOVE is supposedly so strong, den it should inspire you to want to be a better individual isnt it?
To make u feel so whole n loving that u would wanna give to others n at the same time, u are willing to accept the other person, warts n all.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 6:58 PM

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Anw I changed my blogskin YET AGAIN haha. well i am fickle after all n i get bored easily. I DIG the new skin. U like?heh. its pretty isnt it?

Anw, today i got 2 calls. So tmr i shall be trotting down to Raffles Mrt to go to Standard Chartered Building where im gonna do an interview wif Recruit Express who will help me find a job. And on Sat im goin down to Redhill MRT n go to another company who put up an ad in the papers today looking for an admin/operations assistant. A job that i applied for n sent a resume to this morning. Yay hopefully will produce results n i get a job soon. InsyaAllah. Den the money can roll in n i can tink of more ways to spend it heh.

But u noe come to tink of it, I havent really been spending much like i tot i would. As in really go all out shopping. The onli time i bought stuff using my pay for anyting that would satisfy as material desires was on my last day of work when i straight spent 100bucks on 3 tops. Den tts it. After that i guez I spent a bit here n there on transport, food n lil necessities.

Mayb i have learnt to cut on shoppin cos rite now i dun get money anymore from the parental units so gotta noe how to budget.

Oh ya n juz now in a msn convo wif Sooz, i was tokin abt how nice it would be to work in Suria as a scriptwriter. Den mayb the plot in those suria shows would make more sense haha. cos yest while watching Gaduh2 syg, i was like pointin out all the loopholes la. but den again mayb its easy to become an armchair critic huh.

Speaking of criticising ppl, i watch the latest installation of Spore Idol n OMG, some of the ppl are so freakin delusional its scary but it makes for entertaining tv. i was laughin my head off. that cowboy character is so farking merepek la. the english aiyoh. Den that stupid chinese karate guy. wad the hell? sheesh. i was like go away la u irritating bugger. cannot sing tu buat hal cannot sing, nk konon rap lagi tu.selenge habis. The Nong Nong ago character another one haha. Are they reali clueless abt their LACK of singing talent or they reali tink they can sing?Jeez the ppl who would go to all extent to have their 5 secs of fame. or rather infamy in this case

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I juz realize im so terribly fickle. I change my mind oh so easily. I get bored quickly. Bleah.

One moment it seems i have an epiphany n wanna treat ppl nice n give them a chance cos i tot that for every person that comes into my life, i can learn sth from them. whether i like the person or not.

Den e nx instance, Im like ahh heck it. i dun care.

See how screwed up i can be?

We all have our idiosyncracies rite? :p

Anw i guez i registered to go for graduation on 15 june but i may or may not come on the day itself haha. i mean wad can they do if I suddenly decide at the last minute NOT to come rite?

I admit when i went to the np grad website yest nite, i felt a tinge of jealousy n bitterness haha. im like That's it. Im sooo not going.

But this morning , i remembered what Sooz msg me. Just register la but doesnt mean i have to go if i dun wanna in the end. So yea i juz said im going.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 7:40 PM

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Anw yesterday was an eventful day to say the least.i went from euphoric n giggly to panicky for a minute n den on the way bek it was mixed in with a lil fear n paranoia.

Met up wif nura after soo long.Went to Tekka Market to eat.it was e 1st time i ever been there really. but the nasi briyani was superb.nura commented on hw i ate so fast even though i said i wasnt tt hungry b4 heh. oh well when there's delicious food, i will eat fast. anw i notice that if its at other ppl's houses or if its outside n if the food is tempting enuf, i do have a large appetite. its juz when at home or when it comes to food that's kinda mundane, that i eat half-heartedly or nt as heartily as i would like.

Did our prayers at this mosque which was nestled in between shophouses that we could hardly see it. But the ladies prayer area was reali cool cos it wasnt onli air-conditioned but it also had a cozy n secluded air to it. like away from e outside world gitu.

After dat, headed bek to Little India Mrt to go Chinatown where Ppl's Park Ctr is located. here i got an endorphin-high encounter heh. wont divulge into details but i will only say that its been a while since i felt giggly like that haha. i miss that feeling. And well i even tot of doing sth totally crazy. the last time i tot of doing sth impulsive like that n reali did it was the Zumi Zola incident lol. but nah this time, nura brought me bek to earth when she reminded that i got an interview to go to.darn.

anw the interview was alrite.its actually with a recruitment firm who's gonan be job-hunting 4 me.it was only when i was filling up the form that i read i had to pay 12bucks to register.im like damn ape ni.org da la tk bawak cukup duit. so i borrowed some from nura.But hopefully la, they will be able to land some jobs 4 me.suitable ones.

Yea den on the way home in e bus,as usual i use my sis's card la. n of coz in 1 day i guez i cant be too happy so i got a scare when a bus inspector got on it. i seriously began to panick n was like sayin to nura i wanna get off e bus. but the stupid traffic light was too slow. so i juz gave e inspector my card. thank god i didnt show him my sis's card, the one that i used.

at 1st i tot i could get away wif it but den he made a double take at that machine of his n was like 'eh u havent use this card since 2nd May.' And im like oh reali. I tried to make an innocent face and act all obliging even tho i was feeling so nervous inside. but luckily this bus inspector was nt the stern kind n i said 'ok u do 4 me can' with a smile. so he go n tap the card 4 me. but inside i was cursing la. wad luck man. aargh.

But later paranoia struck n i was like alamak skali TIBS gonna send me a letter asking me to pay some sort of extravagant fine cos i didnt follow the rules. if must pay 100bucks or sth, im doomed.i dun wanna pay seh.Ok I pray that wont happen.I guez this would teach me a lesson huh. My dad has told me countless times nt to use my sis's card in case of sth like this. but did i listen? Nooo. Cos im stubborn tts y. bleah.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 9:55 AM

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Dunno y suddenly today the Rihanna vid didnt work. cos of some copyright issues. nvm i put this video instead which combines my fave show ever ONE TREE HILL with the song that has been on replay mode since a couple of days ago UNFAITHFUL.

gotta go get ready soon to meet nura. den she's accompanying me to the interview at Ppl's Park Ctr later.

Will update more soon. Ciao

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 10:36 AM

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This song on my blog 'Unfaithful' by Rihanna has been on repeat mode since i heard it yesterday. its not that i relate to it. god noes i dun have anyone 2b unfaithful to haha. i juz like the tune. actually i dun reali like other Rihanna songs like SOS or If it's loving that u want. somehow i like this one though. anyway enjoy e vid guyz.

on another note, this wk i have been meeting up wif old sec skl frenz like Millah n Seok Fun. i like meeting up wif frenz from my past n catch up on stuff. i can regale them wif stories n interesting tales that happen to me.haha. n its always nice to hang out wif old frenz even though we may going towards different paths in our lives now. besides now that i got free time on my hands, i might as well go out rite.

Speaking of which, im supposed 2 go for a job interview at Ppl's Park tmr. i sent out so many resumes that i dun keep track so when this person emailed me back saying i can come down for an interview, i was wondering where this one is from haha. she told me the office is at Ppl's Park n immediately in my head, im like ah?Ppl's Park? Its been ages since i've been there and the plc is so outta the way. i tink i got a straight bus though but its still quite far from my hse. Its near Chinatown somore i tink so it will be a cheena place. oh well i'll juz go down n see hw it's like.

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Been having a lot of free time on my hands lately since im no longer working. frankly its been very liberating and nice to have the luxury of waking up late heh. i mean after da solat subuh i usually crawl bek into my cozy bed n wander bek into lala land. im in no hurry to get a job so im nt worried. YET. haha. i got the rest of my life to work anw though my mom has been nagging me a lil to go get a job. probably cos she hasnt confirmed on one yet herself. so rite now my dad is the sole breadwinner. ok true la as the eldest daughter i shd contribute to the financial household income but seeing as how im nt reali going out or eating out much, i dun reali use a lot of money. anw i gotta use my own money from now on seeing as i dun get allowance anymore. so im nt exactly imposing on them. but yea i noe la i gotta learn to take the responsibility sooner or later and help out. i juz wanna have a wee bit more time to enjoy n slack ard a bit b4 i cant do that anymore u noe.

Anywayz, tmr or rather today is my darling bro's Topet's bday so juz nw we went out to eat at Banquet. had satay which i had been craving for sooo long cos its been ages since i last ate it. was full to the max. and b4 that, went out wif a guy who treated me to Swensens. haha u noe my bro called me a lucky bitch cos its like everytime a guy ask me out, it seems i get treated to Swensens. well wad can i say heh. but its nt like i ask for it. he himself is crazy abt ice cream. tts y he suggested Swensens in the 1st plc.

But u noe it got me tinking, lately ive been out wif 2 different guys, juz to meet them in person cos i noe em from online. but im nt attracted to them. i mean ok mayb ive been hit by the disease otherwise known as the 'I want a bf' syndrome. i mean juz now i see mildly cute guys ard n im like why cant i go out wif someone who i will be remotely attracted to? why? haiz. its been a while since i am interested in anyone. i miss that adrenaline rush i get when u see someone u like u noe. that giggly feeling haha. i have become so jaded n cynical. haha i whined to my bro abt it n he's like 'u gotta unfreeze that heart of urs'. i noe im hard-hearted but i cant help it. n its not helping that im sooo choosy as it is. looks do matter to me, as much as i noe its nt gd to base impression on juz looks alone. yea2 i noe that its wad inside that matters more. i agree definitely but im superficial n i cant help it when im nt into someone so i guez im nt as bothered much to find out more abt e person if he dun appeal to me physically. sob sob. i wanna not be so damn superficial but at this stage, i dun tink i can help it. aargh.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 12:58 AM

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BOREDOM

Im so bored Im blogging again. sheesh. Anw graduation on 15 June n i have yet to decide if im going. Seriously i dun ever wanna step into NP again. bad memories plague me during the last few mths of poly n it suck. so i'd be happy if i dun ever see that building again. besides, wads e point? i got my diploma oredi wad. juz that this is so-called the official ceremony n all that shit. if i dun wanan come pun, they will mail it to me so wads e difference rite? haha yea2 i noe i sound bitter but wadever la. i didnt get any prize. not that im expecting any wif my grades haha. nk datang pun kene reach so damn early. crazy . have to be there so farking early at 830 am n for wad, juz to have to wait till 10 for the ceremony to start. crazy. i dun wanna miss my beauty sleep. it looks like my mind pretty much made up it seems doesnt it? haiz i dunno la, see 1st. im fickle so i might juz change my mind later on.

Anw on to a happier note, i was so happy when i watched Anugerah Skrin results on mon cos the person i hate is OUT. heh. YAY!!! yea i noe im mean for laughing at someone else's misfortune but i felt bad for like say, a millisecond. b4 i was jumping for joy wahahah. he deserve it la. eksyen terror je. pegi dah. as long as shah is still in lol. i used to see him ard in skl a lot tt time n tot he was so HOT. but now dat the rest of spore noes he's hot too, he kinda lose his appeal a bit. but onli a bit la. he is still hensem la. duh rite :p
Although i tink he oredi masuk some tv shows on suria oredi n he hasnt even won yet. albeit those were juz extra roles but he also won the Sungguh Hot competition n he was in that Cleo top 50 bachelor ting. macam kejar glamor lak haha.

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Entry of Random Thoughts

Ok this is for e Malays la but have u guys ever heard of the words 'sachok','berg','biar betik', 'dok'? Dun u all wonder where they come from? their origins. i mean seriously who the hell tot of all these nonsensical words? i noe their meanings la cos i infer from ppl's conversations but they reali sound weird standing on its own. Ok mayb i dun hang out wif those mats n minahs who use these kinda words in their vocabulary so yea. Asked a fren n he said sachok is a thai word. mayb those mats who screw ard in thailand came up wif it from their rendesvous in thailand. god noes if he was the one screwing wif my brain instead. anw not that i reali care. i juz wonder that's all.

Anw yest went to Kin's bro nye pertunangan. i like it cos i ate a lot.haha for someone who dun usually eat much, i ate till i was seriously full n bloated. But the choc cake was superb n sinfully good. My 1st bite was seriously omg. well mayb im biased cos i LURVE choc n its been a while since i consumed one. but till e end, i got a lil muak of the cake cos it was quite a large slice but tkpe i juz sental cos its too gd to waste heh. kin's lil cuzzies are so adorable. makes me wanna have kids of my own. bleah i dunno y my maternal instinct is kicking in oredi. im onli 20. isnt that too young for me to tink of having kids? haha. but den again mayb not.

i dun even reali like kids to be honest. ok mayb i take that bek la.i like kids when they r cute, adorable, well-behaved n most importantly ADORES me. wahahah.haiz but 1st gotta find a bf la. n den marry him n den have as many kids as i want. well nt that many.i tink i juz want 2. one boy n gerl. fair2 haha. yea2 plan all u want faai. calon pun lum ade cam mane nk kawin. pfft.

See la da kene jangkit n become a minah2 nk kawin lak skrg. this is e result of hanging out wif gerlfrenz who constantly tok abt wanting bfs n getting married. im a sceptic when it comes to love so seriously, marriage is not even on my mind. but lately im surrounded by all these lovesick ppl.why why? haiz. nt that i blame them, i mean we r gerls. its onli natural that we tink abt all these haha.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 1:12 PM

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Wad Lies Ahead

So Im officially unemployed now.Im no longer working at Chomel. To be honest, juz when i was abt to leave, it seems that i might miss it haha. strange isnt it? but nah, i wouldnt wanna stay there anyway. I admit its nt as bad working there as i had made it out to be. probably cos i have got used to the plc n the ppl. but working there has no job prospects n the pay was too measly n nt balanced with the amt of work that needs 2b done. Anw, since i got a diploma, i might as well put it to good use in a job that hopefully i will like n stimulates my brain matter more.

So now im juz sending out resumes to wadever job that interests me. i guez im gonna be a job hopper for now till i find one that i can stick to for more than a few mths at least. i wanan test the waters i suppose n try different kinds of jobs till i find one i like. or at least tolerate heh.

Wish me luck in my job hunting efforts :p

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 1:18 PM

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