Im super bored. Tot of writing an especially thought-provoking entry or sth but inspiration juz isnt there. U noe how it is when u tink of sth reali gd to write in ur blog but den u werent anywhere near ur computer or laptop so u cant spill out all ur tots? yet when ure stuck in front of the comp, ur mind juz goes blank. U cant forge a halfway decent interesting entry to entertain whoever it is who do drop by ur lil ol blog.

Hey, mayb whoever who do read this lil blog of mine can gimme some ideas on what to write abt? Juz tag ur suggestions.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 4:55 PM

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Of Exam Results n Job Searching

So i got a sms from Np abt an hr ago n I passed everything. Alhamdulillah. i knew i can pass la. anw in my mind i had graduated already haha. even b4 the exam. but a paranoid lil part of me did ask wad if i dun lol but i banish tt silly tot cos it didnt make sense.

Anw i got Bs for everything except Massina which i got a C+ for. bluek. n i tot i did alrite for the exam. wadever, its over. My poly years are officially behind me. Oooh but Im happy cos my Masina presentation got selected for the Singapore Youth Media Conference (SYMC). yay we stand a chance to win 2500 bucks but well even if we dun win, at least there's sth impressive to put on my resume lol.

In other news, i got a job now. not sth long term but at least for the nx couple of mths i wont be rotting at home. I can earn some money n save some n of coz spend some n go shoppin heh. Its at this plc called Chomel. im nt one of those retail assistants so u wont see me at the outlets but im more at the HQ at Shaw Centre. some part time sales helper. Okla dun reali noe wad else to blog abt.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 9:14 AM

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This is one of my FAVE songs of the moment.

Geek in the Pink- Jason Mraz

Enjoy the video y'all.

I particularly like these lyrics, tho i adapt it to become my Msn nick..

Save me from unoriginal dums dums who dun care if u complete him or not

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 9:19 PM

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Yesterday was such a loooong, tiring day. up till today, my body is still suffering the after effects. Im aching all over from my shoulder, to my back n even to my arms. Never have I felt so terribly exhausted in such a long time.

Anyway, I started the day damn early, waaaaay too early for any human being in my opinion. Can u imagine i have to wake up at 530 juz so i can be at Little India Mrt at 715?! Its been ages since i last had to wake up at such an ungodly hour. Even if i got classes at 8am in the past, i would wake up at 6. n i would take my own sweet time la even. Which i tink i did yesterday haha. seeing as how i left my hse at ard 645 when the journey to Little india from Bt panjang would take ard an hr. Obviously i was late la duh n didnt reach at 715. got there mayb 745.

Ok I had this flyer distributor job yest n next fri. So it starts at 8 and ends at 2. The person handed me this box which look deceptively small n light but OMG it was soo damn heavy I almost collapsed. I had such difficulty trying to carry the damn thing. And it didnt help that Im nt exactly strong to begin wif n Im so skinny somore. I was tinkin i shd probably have eaten more for breakfast.mayb it could have given me added strength or sth, tho i doubt so.

Anyway I was assigned to Dhoby Ghaut Mrt station to distribute the flyers. I was tinkin damn i should have ask my lil sister for her Mrt card so tt i wont have to waste money buying a card. I only have bus pass u see so i dun have money in my card at all if i wanna take Mrt or Lrt. Actualli i did try lookin for my sister's card in the morning but i couldnt find it. Anyhoo, I made my way to Dhoby Ghaut.

Surprisingly I started out enthusiastically. haha ok mayb tt enthusiastically but wad equates to enthusiastic in my standards as im nt exactly prone to being all perky n smiley especially at 8 in the morning. Or any time of theday for that matter. I did pass the flyers to ppl with a smile on my face n even when some declined, I wasnt too disheartened by it. I didnt curse at them(under my breath of course) like i usually would or make a face. However, as time went by, I keep going bek to the box n realized OMG there's like a GAZILLION more of those damn flyers to give out n im barely halfway or even quarter way thru. I was tinkin Wth! how am i supposed to finish all these stupid flyers. It would take forever. That's when my enthusiasm juz declined steadily. And it didnt help that i was starving n was all alone there. Bleargh. The reason i agreed to take the job was cos i tot i would be doing it wif a fren but she was posted to Dover. Everyone was apparently assigned to different Mrt stations n since i was late, i didnt noe tt. Pfft. I was not only alone, i was also hungry n damn bored.

As usual in times of boredom, I will sms ppl to alleviate the feeling of blahness. Then Sarina called me n said she's on the way to town. I pleaded wif her to come meet me n accompany me. Thank god. After 'distributing' the flyers to ppl and some to non-living objects where ppl dump all these flyers after reading them, u get wad i mean rite haha. Buang la half of those stupid flyers into tong sampah ard the mrt station n Plaza Sing wif Sar's help, i was finally free of those wretched things. I dunno how the hell im supposed to do this again next Fri man. Bluek.

After dat ,walked ard Plaza Sing awhile wif Sar b4 heading to town. Sar went off to Bugis for job interviews while i waited for Kin n Syaz. We were basically wandering about without any purpose. No money to go shopping which sucks. Den passed by Cineleisure where there was a Bboy competition going on. Stood there from 6-8pm den i couldnt take it anymore of the standing. My knees were going to give way oredi. n i was out since 7 in the morning. So terribly exhausted n zombified already.

But watching the Bboys do their thing n strutting or rather dancing their stuff, was waaaay cool. I have always admired these kinda ppl. The things they can do. All the fancy footwork. Man its amazing. And coz, it helps that some of em are too cute ;p. There was one guy from Australia with abs that are to die for. haha im like OMG i loike. Can wash eyes wif all the eye candy around. Some of the Bboys and in the audience.

But by 8, i ciao. had to cancel meetin up wif Millah to get my bday prez from her cos i was too exhausted from the long day. Today Im juz gonna sit at home n rot. My whole body's aching n too tired to sep outside of the house.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 12:52 PM

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Been ages since i last blog. Last few weeks have been nothing but slackin n hangin out wif frenz, goin out n more slackin.

Den last wk i had a sorta quarter midlife crisis cos i was scared. i felt so desolately lost n without any direction in my life. Den i decided that i do wanna get a degree. When i told my dad abt it, all he can say is that so how much are the fees. Felt a lil discouraged cos he didnt sound too enthusiastic about it.

Ok granted yes it will cost more money now if i wanna further my studies. I guez i sorta knew that money's gonna be a problem. I guez a part of me still want my parents to take care of that aspect of me n i wont have to worry abt it, like u noe bek in pri n sec skl days. But since im an adult now n cant live in idealistic dreamland, i have to face up to the facts that I have to be more responsible n start saving towards my own education instead of depending solely on the parents.

But im nt gonna take uni education like in local institutions like NUS or NTU n all tt. cos for one thing, i didnt apply haha. n well i also tot i couldnt get in, not with the grades i get which arent exactly stellar. I dun fail any modules but I didnt get straight As or ADs either. Anyhow, i didnt have any CCA points to bring up the ante up n to impress the Uni judges or whoever it is who's gonna decide the allocation of ppl who can get into these unis.

Anyway, on to another topic altogether cos this sounds a lil depressing, wait this nx topic will sound even more depressing.

Have u ever not worn a particular top or shirt or wadever piece of clothing cos when u look at it, u sorta get reminded of the last time u worn it n u get reminded of certain ppl from the past who u would rather forget?

Ignore the above if it dun make sense to u. But juz now while sorting thru my clothes that i hang at the bek of the door n forgot abt their existence, i came across this red sweater that i last wore quite a few mths ago. lookin at it made me sad n angry at the same time cos i got reminded of the last time i wore it. I nvr knew that
on that day would be the last time i was wif someone that i tot care abt me but turned out to be nt wad i tot.

Ah well this trip down memory lane is nt exactly sth i do often. Cos thinkin abt the past juz dredges up painful memories u would rather forget.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 9:12 PM

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I love ONE TREE HILL. Anyway here is a quote that i reali like...

If having things turn out the way you've wanted them to is the measure of a successful life, then some would say I'm a failure.
The important thing is not to be bitter over lives difficulties, learn to let go of the past, and recognize that everyday won't be sunny, and when you find yourself lost in darkness and despair, remember - its only in the black of night that you can see the stars, and those stars will lead you back home. So don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble, to fall, cuz most of the time, the greatest rewards comes from doing things that scare you the most, maybe you won't get everything you wish for, or maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined, who knows where life will take you, the road is long, and in the end, the journey is the destination.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 1:59 PM

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