BACKSTREET BOYS!! WOOHOO!

Cant believe I really went to the Backstreet Boys concert yest. nearly didnt manage to la. cos the pr woman for it didnt give us the tix till it was ard 8 sth.actuali i didnt reali hope for anything cos didnt wanna be disappointed. in fact, when my editor 1st told me im goin to review the concert, i was like oh ok cool but didnt feel anything. but yay im glad i did cos it was great. at the risk of sounding like a groupie, which im not btw haha. I tink im in love wif BSB again lol. brings me bek to those days bek in pri skl when boybands were all the craze.

and of coz the stadium was packed wif screamin teenage gerls who all sang along to the songs. waving their lil lighters ard n yellin the boys' names.haha n i admit i sang along too la. :p. ok ok i admit im a closet bsb fan. anw i got in FREE somore. where else can i get the chance like this rite? too bad i didnt have a video cam or sth.

anw did i mention that nick is like so fat now?ok when the guys came on stage, i was tinkin who is tt fat guy dancing in the middle, den it hit me.hahaha oh my gosh tts nick carter. he's like blubber all over.but its ok, if he's happy being fat n still get gerls to scream 4 him, more power to him lol.anw howie is cute la, e way he gelek his hips.woo.cair man.brian is so playful. he jumped over the railings n up the seats n of coz there was a stampede when all the gerls wanted to touch him. paiseh to admit this la but i was one of em haha.den suddenly outta nowhere got this 2 big ass bouncers blockin us. den i was pushed by some crazy fan.but dammit i was so close haha.

initially i tot i could onli stay for 3 songs cos tt was wad the pr woman said. but den later my fren told it was onli meant 4 her who was the photographer. all the while i was kinda waitin for someone to juz spring outta nowhere n demand i leave or sth haha. but lucky tt didnt happen n i got to stay the whole way throughout. the concert lasted for ard 2 hrs. by the time i reached home at midnite, i was zonked.

Aaah, an eternal memory of the very 1st concert i attended heh.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 10:31 AM

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Changed my blogskin again. wad can i say? i get bored easily. anw got another belated prezzie yest heh. anw i am so gonna love this bk cos it kicks ass. the title already kicks ass.

WHY MEN LOVE BITCHES

haha. its soo me. anw i wanted it so syaz bought it 4 me. its hers n kin's prezz to me.

Anw have u guys heard of this show called 'Beauty & the Geek'? Singapore should so import this man cos its hilarious. wad those ppl say on this show is like mind-boggling. i dl off the net. ssshh dun tell anyone. anw wad the show's abt is like its this social experiment kinda thing where a grp of beauties n geeks will stay together in a hse and they will learn from each other. not a dating show like those normal realitv tv stuff. its sth like the geeks will teach the gerls sth useful other den partyin n being total airheads while the babes will teach the geeks how to socialise and pick up gerls haha.

so anw i watched the 1st episode of the 2nd season. Here are some funny quotes ....

GEEK QUOTES

- Probably the biggest difficulty i have is interacting with non-intelligent ppl.
- I got several role models. I like Wolverine. cos he proves that hairy guys can get chicks.

BIMBO QUOTEA

- Shopping.. wicked cool. Shoes...wicked cool.
- Some ppl think that I should be more blonde cos of some of the stupid things i do, but i have no blonde hair. its all dark. *giggles*
- When i see a really great pair of shoes, I have a shoe-gasm.

HAHAHA. the last one is totally hilarious. but hey at least she created her own word rite? :p

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 2:57 PM

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Halo

I nvr promised you a ray of light
I nvr promised there'd be sunshine everyday
I will give u everything i have
the good, the bad

Why do u put me on a pedestal?
Im so up high that i cant see the ground below
So help me down u got it wrong
I dun belong there

One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo when u look at me
but standing from here
u wouldnt say so
u wouldnt say so if u were me
and i, i juz wanna love u
i juz wanna love u


My fave song of the moment, from bethany joy, the gerl who plays haley on One tree hill, for those of u watch it. lurrrve this song.

anw juz now i got 2 bday prezzies heh. albeit belated but its alrite. i looove my prez. Got one cute lil notebook from paper ppl and pink earphones. haha pink seh. so sad that onli the right side is workin. dunno y the left one's not. its weird but this yr my prezzies seem to be all pink. the brooch that nura gave me was pink and so are the earphones n the notebook which is called my lil brag book. cool isnt it? The Paper People btw sells all these funky, uniquely designed notebooks and stationary that are very cute.

yest was my acting class. we all watched our own films that we made. actuali i like my grp's one. mayb im biased but i tink ours was the best haha. but it was too short la. anw i tink e credits look fabulous, if i do say so myself. haha of coz wad, done by Urs truly. i mean compared to the other 2 grps' credits which are juz handwritten. i did mine on powerpoint ok n i was like soo clueless la at 1st on how to start. but the final result was rather gd. anw my grp graded ourselves C. well nt bad la for our 1st attempt. juz hav to do better on the nx video proj.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 9:54 PM

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Have u guys ever felt that when it comes night time, u tend to feel more negative and ur tots take a more depressing turn? I dunno if its juz me but i do. it's like for some reason, when I lie down on my bed at nite n tink, my tots will immediately juz veer towards pessimism. i will feel so dark n gloomy. mayb its the lack of light that's supposed to make u feel more at peace or sth.
oh ya now come to tink of it, i read somewhere tt in countries where there are winter, the ppl tend to feel more depressed cos of the long, cold, dreary weather. mayb its e same in this case.
anw yest i was feeling quite irritable already even before i hang out wif the gerls in the afternoon. so i was being more quiet than my usual quiet self.

I notice that lately I have been pushing ppl away.it's like my mouth will react faster than my brain and i will say things that i noe will hurt ppl but i say them anyway. Then after that, i would feel a bit guilty and bad but den even b4 that, deep down i had a feeling i wanted to hurt ppl wif my words. i may not be making any sense here but tts e way i feel.

Den i tink i have been more...i dun quite noe how to describe it...im not reali more gloomy den usual...i juz dun care much abt things anymore. Indifference, i suppose that's e word. like ok wadever. i mean in the past, yea i will lapse into my dark moments but den i will be a lil more perky when im around ppl. but now it seems like even ppl dun cheer me up like they used to.

Anw i turned the big 2-0 a couple of days ago. Honestly, at that time, I didnt feel much different than when i was still 19. But now a few days later, I guez it suddenly hit me.

Im no longer a teenager.

I cant blame my angst on adolescent angst anymore. I cant juz shy away from responsiblities. Im supposed 2b an adult now. which sux cos i dun wanna. Ya i sound like a childish brat but the truth is, im scared. i have to take charge of my own life now n it scares the fuck outta me.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 11:03 AM

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OBVIOUSLY U HAVE MISTAKEN ME FOR SOMEONE WHO GIVES A FUCK

haha guez who juz wish me happy bday online juz now? if it isnt tt asshole. i was a lil surprised. n for a moment, i felt weird. but yea juz said thankiew.
den i guez we tok abt some stuff. he still didnt reali wanna admit he's wrong. granted he did say sorry a lot but he still wanted to make himself sound so noble. bluek. pi dah. relek one corner sua. when i told him i didnt hate him actuali , he didnt believe me. yea i dun reali hate him. i juz dun care abt him. if u dun care, u dun hate rite? anw when i told him he's a coward for running away from e prob, he said thanks eh. presumably in a sarcastic tone. n im like sheesh this guy. masih tk nk anggap dier bersalah seh. nk step noble tk nk hurt my feelings. tts y he juz gave me cold shoulder hoping i will get the hint its over.
ala pape la eh. ni suma kisah 2005. skrg da 2006. new guys, new possibilites. altho frankly speakin, the more guys i get to noe, the more im nt interested in pursuing a relationship. tk kuasa.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 10:28 PM

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME..

haha, ok actuali its tmr but hey i wanna give a bday shout-out to myself, cannot meh :p. anw i mayb too lazy to blog tmr. Oh ya n also

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI

to all Muslims celebratin tomorrow as well. tmr gonna juz visit my paternal grandma at my aunt's plc in jurong. other den tt, nth much. never been the type to celebrate birthdays anyway so no big parties or anything. besides im turnin 20 already so im turnin old haha. haiz but seriously i realize its like so fast that my teenage years juz whizzed past me and now im entering adulthood already. it feels like juz yesterday when i was a selenge n kental freshie juz entering poly from sec skl and now i have grown up.

ADULTHOOD = MORE RESPONSIBILITY

I dun wanna grow up la can?

but of coz time waits for no man. pretty soon, i have to start depending on myself. i mean not that i cant do that already but financially im still under my parents. And well that cant possibly go on forever. i gotta start supporting myself. So tt means i gotta start earnin my own moolah. my savings are dwindling. And i want money not onli to help out wif ma folks but also to pamper and indulge myself heh. Anw now that my mom's not workin cos she gotta take care of m ysickly grandma at home, all the more i should start workin.

I mean initially i tot i wanna continue wif my studies. i wanna get a degree cos diploma nowadays is nth much. heck a degree is becoming commonplace. but well i guez i can start having a job 1st to support my own education should i decide to pursue it in the future.

I admit hearin some of my frenz sayin wad plans they got aft graduation makes me feel like im a lil lost for not reali having an idea of wad i wanna do wif my life. but u noe wad? aft tokin to some other gd frenz who are also in the same boat as me, i have realized that it is okay not to always have a plan. sometimes it is good to juz go wif the flow. not that it means we are aimless or unambitious. its juz that our priorities are different. Im e sort who will make a to-do list and not knowing what's in store 4 me is hard sometimes. Which explains why I hate surprises cos i like 2b prepared. The unknown is a fearful thing 4 me to face. but over the years, i have grown to become accustomed to deal wif sudden changes and i have learnt not to be so panicky if there is no plan to follow.

I hope that wadever God has in store for me this year, I wish they are all good. Even if not, I will handle what obstacles life has for me and deal wif them head-on. I juz have to have faith. Even if sometimes tts a lil hard to do.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 9:02 PM

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I DUN WANNA GROW OLD

have u ever felt like ure sad but u dunno y?yea well im feelin like that now. i mean not sad in the real sense of the word. juz numbness. like i feel sianz.


anw things at home have changed since the new year. my grandma got bek from hospital on 31 dec and well she hasnt been the same. now my mom gotta stay at home almost all e time cos have to look after her. feed and clothe her. seein my grandma in that pitiful state made me feel like i dun wanna grow old. i would rather die young. actuali even b4 that, i dun wanan grow old. i mean why ppl wanna be immortal is beyond me. anw i dun wanna have to live so long till i commit so many sins. wads e point? u might as well live a short but happy eventful life. why grow old n face so many disappointments in life and be more susceptible to diseases that ravage the old?


anw graduation is looming soon. 5 or 6 more weeks den ADIOS Ngee ann. I cant wait la to be honest. becoming a lil sick of goin to skl n doing mindless proj works n assignments. been bloghoppin thru my fellow masscommers' blogs n most of them are jaded n cynical already with the course. i mean i do enjoy being in MCM. dun get me wrong but there comes a time when u think aah, heck it. i dun care anymore. juz get me outta here. move on to another chapter in my life. besides i have gained a lot from poly and its definitely changed me. for the better or worse, im not so sure but it has definitely made me grown up and opened my mind to a lot of things that i didnt noe exist b4. i met great ppl who have become gd frenz. i have had my share of frenships that didnt last and burned bridges wif some who i would rather not see anymore. but all in the name of experience.


WAD DUN KILL U MAKES U FEEL LIKE KILLING AT 1ST BUT EVENTUALLY IT WILL MAKE U STRONGER


So yup, pretty soon its all gonna be over. Close the poly pages of my life and onto wad, im not quite sure rite now but i hope they will be better.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 9:57 PM

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NEW YEAR...NEW BEGINNINGS?


1. Gain more wt (haha this is like a quest that has been in effect since 4ever but has never been accomplished)
2. Start exercising again (its been eons since i have engaged in any sort of exercise, its unbelievable, im like soo bloody unfit)
3. Achieve Inner peace (this i reali hope i can do cos i dun want my mind to be so cluttered with baggage n worries, altho sometimes i may get too caught up in my low moods)

alrite shant be so ambitious. 3 is enuf :p


However, all this not important in the whole context of things. I am thankful that i have good frenz i can rely on and who i noe i can trust. i have a family who i get along wif. and in the end tts wad reali matters.

Gerl Frenz i Love to Bits

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 6:10 PM

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HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Yest i went home soo freakin late that i was so scared my parents gonna yell my ears off when i reach home but thank god tt didnt happen. i was wif syaz at marina wif a gazillion other ppl watchin fireworks explode at marina bay. gotta say it was a nice experience even tho e crowds were totally stifling n waay too much 4 my taste but well e fireworks more den make up 4 it.


a totally spectacular display of gorgeousness and wowness haha.yea2 my vocab is not exactly sterling today but nvm. it was e 1st time i witness fireworks up close like that. usually its onli on tv. but the exploding and cascading effects of the fireworks were reali beautiful. managed to record 20secs of of it on video but i tink im such a dud cos i kinda forgot hw to record seein as how i seldom record vid on my hp haha. so its like quite merepek. but everywhere ard me all i saw were ppl holding their handphones n video cams up in the air to capture the amazing display. altho mayb we all a bit jakun cos like tk pena tgk fireworks b4 gitu haha.


anw b4 tt we walked ard esplanade area ah to kill time. syaz n i were stuck in this huuuge human traffic jam where syaz got groped n there was nearly a fight btw this grp of ah bengs who hit this poor indian guy. thank god it didnt escalate into anything serious. i was like aiyoh why even bother to fight at a time like this ? ure bound to get hit n groped n accidentally knocked by someone's elbow or sth. juz let it go la.


i managed to persuade my bro come down to esplanade also so i can say to my parents tt at least got him there haha. but in the end we got separated cos he n his frenz went aft some gerls. so we ended up goin home separately. but im glad i reached home earlier la haha.


anw juz wanna end the entry wif a quote i found n like ...

Allah answers prayers in 3 ways:
HE says YES and gives you what you want.
HE says NO and gives you something better.
HE says WAIT and gives you the best in his own time.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 5:13 PM

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