Wednesday, November 02, 2005
SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all my muslim frenz out there.Cant believe its Hari raya tmr. Yet another holiday in this week infested wif one public holiday aft another. nt that im complainin.its great, except for e fact that i gotta go to skl later for 4hrs of convex. bluek. it reali baffles me why they cant juz start skl the followin wk when there are no holidays. i mean wad difference does a wk make?most of us onli go to skl for like 3 days max. some even nt at all.So today is e last day of fasting n tonite i'll prob be sittin my butt in front of e tv watchin the yearly variety Aidilfitri show on Suria. i will prob get nostalgic n pangs of e hari raya spirit will eventually hit me, well some of it i guez. ive never been much for celebratin raya.in e past it used to be abt e moola haha.but strangely this yr that hasnt even crossed my mind, probably cos my subconscious noes that i wont get much. maklumla da tua bangka, at least in e eyes of relatives who will hardly give u much money once u reach like 18 or sth. In fact, this yr i guez all im lookin forward to is dressin up in my raya clothes which for once, i like haha. nt tt i hate e previous yrs' baju raya, its juz that they werent exactly to my taste cos my parents would be e ones to choose e material. seeing as how i cant be bothered to follow them to go buy. but this yr i chose them myself heh.In e past, ive constantly complained abt being made a temporary waitress during raya. cos i gotta learn how to serve ppl who come to visit. which is so awkward 4 me, i tell ya. cos im nt much of a hostess. i dun like to mingle n mix n make small talk.n e serving of food n drinks also prove to be a chore. but of coz, as anak dara, i gotta help.which makes me wonder how im gonan noe hw to layan ppl when i got like my own hse n gotta be a real hostess instead of lettin my parents do all e work lol. From the sound of it, im like anti-social rite? haha.i dun tink so le.well ok, my sibs were once accused by an uncle of being social misfits one hari raya.cos all we do when we visit other ppls' hses is that we sit in a corner n munch on cookies n juz watch e tv while our other cuzzins mix ard wif each other.hey its nt my fault we're nt close to our cuz.i mean they all live so far away n none of them r hardly ard my age grp, which reali cuts down on conversation topics when u tink abt it.most of them r lil kiddies who are like 10yrs younger den me.n well wad can u reali tok abt wif adults anw?im like the in-between. oh ya n u noe wad happen when tt uncle commented on why we r such social retards, i shot bek at him that 'well, uncle.we have nothin to talk abt. besides, wad do u care?' haha. well i was quite rebellious a few yrs ago. i have since practised diplomacy n tact.=p So now, i guez all my sibs n i make efforts to be part of the circle. And i realized that ok, its nt so bad la.besides, im a masscomm student. gotta learn how to socialize n make nice.Great, 2 more hrs n i gotta leave to go skl. bluek.i'd prob wanan puke when i look at e sch building haha. I was sooo beginning to get used to e freedom of nt having to sleep early 4 skl e next day, e luxury of wakin up at noon. Im surprised i wasnt bored during e term break haha which is usually e case.
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