Im Fuckin frustrated la. abt things that shouldn't bother me. About things that shd bother me. About everything la. AARGH!!
Stupid thumbdrive dunno y nt workin n keeps hangin on me. now i cant open e bloody client ppt. how to put inside e yahoogrps?damnit
Den my emotions get so whacked.one min i feel like i dun give a fuck, den e next i noe im in denial but refuse to feel certain emotions cos i dun wanna feel crappy. but i feel like crap anw.Den e nx i feel happy but as usual wadever 'happiness' i feel last onli like a minute cos i will be feel so freakin irritated e very nx moment.
I get a high, den within a few hrs, my mood will plunge south. And its nt pms ok?cos i juz had my period. Unless this is like post menstrual, not pre.den i dunno la ah.

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Ok wad did i wanna blog abt? Anw now u noe its like whenever im at e comp, i will somehow suddenly feel pang of hunger. i noe its gd la rite since its my stomach tellin me i shd go n eat for gods sake since im so bloody skinny? but den i will either too lazy to move my ass or too lazy to find some nice food to gobble up on haha.aiyah.

Anw yest met up wif syaz at bugis aft her performance at e tiger cup thingy. den went to far east square to get e ndp coupons 4 e goodie bags. somehow i was lucky enuf in e balloting to get e stuff. all this is cos of my dad la cos he's e one who pestered me to go online n ballot. with his name, my name n my mom's name. guez im e lucky one haha.

Anw its obvious i didnt noe hw e heck i shd go to far east square from bugis. knew there were 2 buses that go there but initially we couldnt find e freakin bus stops that has those bus nos on them. but finally managed to find our way.got in e bus n was like ok gotta keep a lookout for cross st cos that's where e plc is. lucky i spotted it. if not we would be like oblivious n travellin to god noes where. seein as how direction-clueless i can be sometimes

Den since we passed by a banquet, me n syaz decided to go eat cos we were damn hungry. happen to meet desmond wee hehe.while buyin drinks. i was squinting at e prices of drinks when this guy kept peerin at me. im like eh, hi. haha. cos at 1st i saw dan n e grp of ppl he went to cambodia wif. skali saw desmond wee also.

Finally aft fillin our stomachs headed on down to far east sq. i was like ok where e heck am i supposed to collect e bloody coupons?so me n syaz juz walked tryin to find e plc. den syaz saw e sign. so we walked la. den i happen to bump into a fren tt i havent tok in a while. almost forgot his name so i had to say it to him to be sure haha. he's workin at a cafe there n since there was no one to serve, he offered to show e plc. it seems tt everytime i see him, he will be helpin me find a plc.haha.

Anw yea aft gettin e coupons, which i found out i have to take on national day itself. aiyah so troublesome. im gonna drag my dad along since he was e one who asked me to take e goodie bags. so typical sporeans rite? lol. have to take free stuff.

Ok la, finish storytellin already la. im gonan look in e kitchen 4 foodies to stuff my face wif heh.

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Been feelin a lil sick lately. Being surrounded by ppl who are sick does tt to u.Was blowing my nose non stop during PR class yest. Den my stupid lenses were giving me trouble as usual. Dozing off too during PR but den again, when hasnt tt happen? haha. Aiyah i hate PR la. why did i choose it?Bleuk. Hopefully Ass dun read this. knowin how some lecturers got nth better to do wif their time than read our lil ol' blogs. i nvr noe who will stumble upon this n tell it to her. I mean no offence to Ms Ang, she's alrite n all but PR is definitely nt sth im interested in. I cant even be bothered abt SIF.

Ok anw yest met up wif dear Millah aft sooo long. havent seen tt gerl in ages since sec skl ended i tink. She's such a teddy bear la haha. had loads of laughs. wif millah, laughter is definitely nt far off. Watched Mr & Mrs Smith at Lido. of coz Brad Pitt is hot la but i was lookin at Angelina Jolie more le haha. I mean she's a total babe la but somehow i nvr reali take notice of her. Not tt i swing e other way but she's one sultry mama. n those lips of hers. Sheesh. she looks like she's perpetually poutin even when she's not. Yea aft e movie, we went out n we saw like a whole lot of ppl waiting 4 dunno wad, wif yellow barricades n all. Saw tt it was some Initial D conference or sth. I was jokin to Millah tt mayb we shd stay n wait 4 Jay Chou n screamed 'Jaaaay!!' like some fanatic lol.

Walked ard Far East aft tt. went to this incredible shop tts like my haven la. seriously. All e glittery jewellery that's like dirt cheap r sold there.i bought 3 pretty bracelets for 10 dollars. how freakin cheap is tt? haha. all e shine was makin me delirious wif excitement. u noe hw i have a penchant 4 glittery stuff wad. danielle commented tt i have a thing 4 buyin things that look expensive but hardly cost anything lol.yup2 of coz.

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So long nvr give proper update. so lazy la.nth in my life worth writing abt anw except 4 skl. whick sucks. i dun like skl anymore. bluek. PR sux. obviously i dun like it. im still wonderin why e heck i chose it as one of my top 6 modules. sheesh.
Am i reali so skinny? Aiyoh. i noe la i dun eat much n sometimes im lazy to eat also cos there's nth worth eating in my hse n i dun wanan waste money buy e foodies tt i like cos i want to save money. haha ok im rambling. yea e thing is lately suddenly ppl's been sayin im skinny. wads up wif tt? b4 tt u mean im nt skinny meh? jeez.
A complete stranger in e lift tt day suddenly said to me 'Eh u very skinny ah.But den nowadays ppl like.' And he said all tt while smiling at me. Im like 'Erm ok'...awkward fake smile. I was wonderin ok so mayb on tt day i was wearin sth tt reali showed off my boniness or sth.
Den juz nw my bro suddenly looked at me n said 'U very skinny eh?' I was like 'Huh? Now den u notice ke? Hari2 tgk n ddk same rumah takkan tk nampak kakak sendiri kurus'. He was like 'Tk pena notice'.
So i was worried la tt im losing weight again or sth since im so prone to tt. ppl gain wt easily, im e opposite. But im still 40 kg le. no different from e last time i checked. Buat susah diri aku je. Worried 4 nth padahal mmg tetap maintain kekurusan aku sejak dulu pe haha.
I wanna gain wt la. i mean i noe im bloody kurus but no need to make me feel so self conscious can or not? Aiyoh until perfect strangers say like tt to me. It's nt like im purposely not eating n becoming anorexic like mary kate olsen or sth. Im nt eating n den throwin bek e food i juz consume n becomin bulimic or wadever. It's juz my genes. Im naturally skinny wad can i say.
And u noe after so many times i spelt tt word 'skinny', it has stopped makin sense to me. like did i spell e word correctly? Hmmm

Anw tadi went to old Wdls to buy baju n kain raya hehe. yay got reali nice cloth n this one nice pantsuit. It's reali pretty. i loike. at 1st wanted e same one as my sis. cute kan kalo wear same color? but den in e end chose a diff one cos i preferred e one got a mixture of pink n yellow. my lil sis wanted e purple one, she nt girly like me yet so she hates pink haha. but i like e gauzy material. cuma kene alter e pants skit ah cos damn gelebeh seh. so wide at e thighs there. da la aku kudut seh haha. my mom said its see thru. ala can wear shorts ah kat dlm.

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The Used- All that I've Got

So deep, that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
I sleep, I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...

I need something average
Someone please just give me
Hit me and knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can't laugh
All I want inside I still am empty

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
Eyes closed so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream f**k me, I..

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Predenting I'm not
I'm far from lonely

And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream f**k me
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
and it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 11:08 AM

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Simple Plan ~ Me Against the World

We're not gonna be just a part of their game
We're not gonna be just the victims
They're taking our dreams and they tear them apart

To everyone's the same
I've got no place to go
I've got nowhere to run.
They love to watch me fall
They think they know it all

I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I've gotta prove them wrong
Me against the world
It's me against the world

We won't let them change how we feel in our hearts
We're not gonna let them control us
We won't let them shove all their thoughts in our heads
And we'll never be like them

I've got no place to go
I've got nowhere to run
They love to watch me fall
They think they know it all

I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I've gotta prove them wrong
It's me against the world
World….world…world…
Me against the world
World….world…world…
Its me against the world.
(scream)

Now I'm sick of this waiting
So come on and take your shot
You can spit out you insults
But nothing you say is gonna change us
You can sit there and judge me
Say what you want to
We'll never let you win.

I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
Me against the world

I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I've gotta prove them wrong
They'll never bring us down
We'll never fall in line
I'll make it on my own
Me against the world

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Uninspired. Unfulfilled. Grumpy. Apathetic. Nuff said

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 8:14 PM

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Been eons it seems since i logged onto this thing. havent had e urge to blog.interest in this thing called bloggin has rapidly dwindled.Ironic since now it seems to be e latest phenomenon. Well i get bored easily wad can i say.

Just yest Mrs Singh was tokin abt bloggin.Apparently some of e lecturers have been trackin our blogs n i tot they have so much work to do haha.mayb not so much huh?Anw skl's been juz one day aft another. Nothing much goin on reali.e only module which i dun like is PR.bluek.it's boring la.why e heck did i take it?beats me. Ad's alrite cos i find tt jenny low is nt such a bitch anymore.She says she's gonna tone it down since we r 3rd yrs n all so there's no need to hassle us as much as in 2nd yr. Radio journ's easy compared to Ad n Pr.Its funny when Felix keep sayin last wk tt its gonna be a taxing n technical work haha.compared to e other 2 modules i have, radio journ's a breeze. well so far at least.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 11:55 AM

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