Havent felt like bloggin in a while though I have clocked in online hrs. Goin online and chattin on MSN has been a rarity nowadays for me, especially at nite cos that's when my butt will be perched on e sofa consuming e endless images on TV for hours on end haha.Yea im becomin a couch potato.I got a lot of time on my hands anw. Besides once skul starts, watchin TV will soon be a rare indulgence. Instead, my time will be more spent in front of e computer, doin e mountain load of assignments n projects tt i gotta do research on.
I cant believe a mth of my hols has passed by. It all seemed so fast. Now i got onli like 3more wks left.Surprisingly im nt as bored as i would tink i would be, wif e monotonous routine of wake up, bathe,eat,go online, watch tv, eat,nap,watch tv.hahaha u get my drift.Ok la sometimes it wil get excruciatingly boring but even if i wanna go out,im broke. And in spore,u can hardly have fun if ure lackin in e cash dept seeing as how everything needs moolah nowadays. Bluek.
I cant wait to get e 100bucks tts supposed 2b my pay for teachin tuition to my lil sis.At least den I will finally be able to get some $$ on my hands hehe.
Anw remember hw I said tt time me n syaz wanna go down to clementi mrt to see if my no's there n to erase it.Yea well e plan went to moot cos both of us were too lazy haha.Anw i tot tt since lately no idiot has been msgin me,i figured my number probably nt there anymore so why bother. =p

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I cant help but notice that a lot of strange things have been happening in my life lately. Things I didnt ask for. But den again, who ask for anything strange to happen in their lives anw rite?haha.ok im rambling.
Anw, i tink e whole episode of idiots msgin me have ended. I hope. One of em msg me again tt time n i said to him honestly i found it uncomfortable making frenz thru e means of sms when i didnt even willingly give out my no in e 1st plc.I found it a riot that even tho i was kinda rude to him n he himself told me tt actuali he didnt wanna msg me n he found me arrogant, he still wanna be frenz. hahaha.I was like u tink im so proud n yet u still wanna make frenz wif me?why?.And he was like Erm i dunno either but okla since u dun want, i wont force u.haha.weird.And another thing tt i dun like abt ppl like these is tt they onli msg u when they r bored. His opening line in his msg was 'Im bored. Long time nvr hear from u', sth like tt.Sheesh. Wad am i? Some sort of service to relieve u of ur boredom. Kiss my ass la, as if i got nth better to do.
Then later on in e same day, another one of those guys msg me. This time i wasnt so cruel cs he seemed nicer than e 1st one. He sms me sayin its been a while since he heard from me n im like huh?didnt u juz msg in e morning?Onli thing is tt i didnt bother replyin his msgs la, tts e thing haha. For this one, i juz told him its better for him to juz msg me like onli once a week cos i dun reali like 2b restricted by guys who msg me everyday. Haha. usually i dun mind la but i juz give tt excuse cos i dun wanna waste my msgs to ppl i dun even noe. I got e idea from syaz who once told me tt she cant stand clingy guys who msg everyday.lol. wad r frenz for rite? if nt to cekup their ideas n use them as excuses once in a while hehe
But u noe wads strange? The 1st guy didnt get my no from e mrt wall. He insisted that he juz randomly msg my no.I was like wadever u say but if indeed wad he said is true, den it must have been a whole lotta coincidence that he decided to sms me ard e same time as e other freaks who pluck my no off tt wall. Wad i still wanna noe is who would sabo me n scrawl my number there?Hmmph.
But yea its all over now anw so best to let bygones be bygones. Anw on thur got my results. Truth be told, i didnt even think abt my results la. it was like i wasnt worried in e least. I got a smattering of C+s. haha. And i was tinkin, Haiz, wad an average grader i am lol. Oh wellz. Im becoming increasingly more jaded n indifferent lately. Towards a lot of things in my life. Boys i hardly chase anymore.Im nt turning lesb or anything. I juz am not attracted to anyone in a while now. I dun seem to care much for my studies, I mean i do. juz not as much as I used to. As long as i can get by, tt seems 2b e mentality i have now, which is bad i noe. Den my quest to find a job during e hols have gone bust.

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Ok I finally noe why e fark I have been getting insipid msgs from dumbasses. My handphone number is apparently scrawled on e Clementi mrt wall.I found this out when Another guy msg me. I was like WTF Another one?Sheesh. So I asked e perpetual qn tts been on my mind and one which I asked every single motherfucker who msg me but refused to ans me. Thank god this one had e decency to be honest and told me where he got my no.

WAAAH I was so farkin pissed la yesterday. Stupid bastard who put my no there gonna pay if i find out. Im sooo gonan kick his balls till he cant have children in e future. Why do i say balls? Cos im pretty sure it must be a guy. I mean who else is dim witted enuf to sabo n do this to me? As far as i noe, i have no enemies, well not so serious ones anw who i give my number to, n i dun tink i have offended any gerls lately so that onli leaves e guys. And i suspect that its tt stupid mat indon guy who i dun give a fuck abt n refused to entertain his calls n msgs tt time who went n put my no there. ASSHOLE. Stupid arse.AARGH.

But actuali now tt e anger's cooled off, i feel like puttin his no on some toilet or bus seat n scarawling 'Call this number if u want cheap sex or sth'. Dumbass freak. No wonder lately Ive been harassed by dumb idiots.

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POORER THAN A CHURCHMOUSE


U noe I've never reali understood e sayin 'poorer than a churchmouse'. I mean why would a mouse have money in e 1st plc? It's nt like it needs it. All it has to do is scurry abt lookin for food, that it steals from some kitchen or sth. Ok i digress.
Anw Its official. Im broke, save for a 5dollar note in my wallet. Haiz, im poor now. Gosh. All my savings have dwindled to oblivion. And I didnt even realize it. It's weird suddenly having no money. I mean its like all e savings i had from e past few years from hari raya tt i got n keep at home have all gone. Haiz. I feel so sad. I spend e nite b4 thinkin 'wow, am i reali so dreadfully penniless now?' I had to beg my dad for money on Sun nite cs i had to go out to work yest. Which i have to divulge e story later on haha. U will laugh cs im so pathetic. Bluek.

U noe e job tt Im supposedly supposed 2b workin in, as a Charity Promoter. Well i started my 1st day yest n guess wad? I cant sell any tix. Well mayb cos I have up like during e 1st hr of it cs i kept gettin rejected left, right n centre. Sheesh, i knew it was gonna be hard but i didnt noe tt i literally had to beg ppl n tt part is e suckiest part. Finally, i cant take it anymore n i juz cant be bothered. I noe, i noe, Im ashamed of myself. Where's my fighting spirit? Where's my 'die2 must get ppl to buy these stupid tix' attitude? All dwindled faster that u can say 'Hi, Sir/Miss. Would u like to buy a charity ticket?' Bluergh. Now i noe y Syaz didnt wanna join me in e 1st plc.

So yea gonna quit after onli 1 day haha. Im nt gonna torture myself la. Wads e point? I need e money. or rather I want e moola so i can splurge n indulge myself in all those pretty lil things i see in shops, like tt cute lil Adidas shoes wif teeny flower motifs n new clothes n bks n cds n god noe wad else that r tempting me in stores. But I dun wanna do e charity promoter gig ah now. Trav who did it wif me is onli sianz. And his sianezz rubbed off on me. Oh well, looks like Im juz gonna depend on e 100bucks i'll be gettin from my mom 4 teachin my lil sis tuition.

In other aspect of my life that is becomin more baffling, remember hw i tok abt e stupid weirdo who msg me tt time. Well guez wad? i got another one. Great isnt it? Tak cukup dgn satu, lagi satu freak comes along. And this one is even worse. I gave him a nickname, Selenge Eng, which translated means 'Disgusting Eng' cos his eng is so damn down in e pits that i can barely understand him. Man, i tink even my sister's pri skul eng is waaay better den tt.

He msg me Sun mornin askin if he can get to noe me, plzzz. Bluek , wads up wif tt? U sound so desperate. I was like who e fuck are u, although in politer terms, of coz, seein how nice i am. haha. Den he ans 'I got ur no in my hp so i wanna noe who u are'. I was like 'Er, i dunno hw e heck my no got in ur phone but i reali dunno u la'. Den he ask my details la, wad crap la. Found out he's a 23yr old mly technician.
Den out of e blue, he said 'Can i meet u?im boring now n have no member so i reali wanna meet u. Please understand wif my situation now'. HAHAHAHAHAHA. LIKE WAD E FUCK SIA?
I was appalled n disgusted n stunned beyond belief at that last phrase 'plz understand wif my situation now... I mean seriously who e fark does he tink he is to ask me to go n meet him at his beck n call. Stupid idiot. I dunno who e heck he is la for goodness sake. fOR all i noe, he's some creepy ass freak who's a psycho or sth.I onli noe u for wad like less than half a day. Sheesh.

Macam tk cukup gitu satu stalker(im referrin to e mat indon guy who hit on me in causeway pt, den got tt eccentric guy who got my no out of nowhere n now this freak also who also gt my no from dunno where.

Haha n u noe e other funny part. I wanted to msg trav to meet him yest n i accidentally msg e stupid freak aka Selenge Eng. n he reali tot i wanna meet him. Puhleeze. when i told him it was accidentally sent, he refused to believe me sayin 'u miss me rite? i noe, tts y u wanne meet me.'
Hello, creep. i will never ever miss a stupid arse like u la who shok sendiri. *rolls eyes at his pure insipidness*Disgusting seh.

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U noe i didnt realize that now it's already e 2nd wk of my hols. Time reali flies. So i got like 5more wks of slackin n lazing ard b4 im launched bek into e grind of things in skl.

Anw since i got a lot of free time on my hands, wed was spent at Kin's hse having a movie marathon. Man her hse can operate as a makeshift dvd stall or sth haha, wad wif e massive no of dvds available at ur disposal n u can watch whenever ure bored. So me n syaz spent e day in Kin's crib screamin n laughin our lungs n hearts out at e movies we watched. We watched a total of 4 movies: Saw, Mean gIRLS, In good company & Fraility( it's a movie tt nvr made it into cinema screens here).

SAW was a scream, literally. haha.For those we had oredi watched it, u'll noe wad Im tokin abt. It's a reali gd movie. yea2 im slow i noe. It was like so long ago rite but all of us had yet to watch it so yea there we were, watchin in tense suspense n trepidation at e tv screen wondering who e hell e sick twisted bastard was who created all this scenarios juz so he can teach ppl to appreciate their lives. There was 1 point in e movie that all 3 of us, Me, Kin n Syaz screamed in unison hahaha. And then after tt, all of us were rolling ard in laughter sc we all did it in chorus, like some sort of symphony or sth. but it was all fun. tHE ending was definitely an unexpected twist. As for e rest of e films, they were alrite. I watched Mean Girls b4, In good company was a lil boring n well, by e time Fraility came along, I was half dozing n was smsin ppl to keep myself awake haha. Only me la, e other 2 were so engrossed in watchin e movies. Oh ya n tnx to Kin for cookin Indomee for us 4 dinner,really nice, didnt noe she can cook hehe. =p

Oh ya n I got a job nw haha. As a Charity Promoter. yea2 i noe, im gonan be one of those ppl u see on e streets pestering ppl to donate. I wasnt very thrilled at e prospect either but when i met e person-in-charge, he was reali nice n I tink tt e pay is nt bad for abt 4hrs of work. Granted, I'll be one of those annoyin ppl I usually avoid on e streets but den e gd pt is tt it will help me to get out of comfort zone, do a gd deed at e same time n get paid. So it was an alrite payoff.

Yea,lately I noticed I have e unfortunate luck (how paradoxical is tt?) 2b contacted by weirdos. First was e stalker who I tot had forgotten me aft 2 wks of hitting on me but apparently not cos he sometimes call or msg me. bluek. I have ceased to let him bother me but now I got another freak who suddenly msg me outta nowhere yest. And this is not even my fault ok cos I have no freakin idea where e hell he got my no. I'll juz type out e smses so u guys make ur own conclusion abt this weirdo.

Weirdo: Boring seh, awk2 kat sana tu, blh kenalan tk? (Translated: Bored ah, u over there, can i
get to noe u?)
Me: Who's tt?
W: Org sini ngah boring, mendak je ni, i boy kat tmn jurong, sape tu?gurl or boy?
(T:Im bored, Im boy from taman jurong, who's tt? gal or boy?)
M: I dunno any boy tmn jrg.Hw u get my no? Den u juz take ppl's nos without an inkling if its a guy or gal?
W: Yea, young n dangerous, relax n adventurous, bored case so i msg ppl. Odd issit to msg boy to boy, can la brader?
[Hahaha, by this time, im amused cos he tinks im a guy n im wondering who e hell this guy is. i also duno wad e heck he was crappin abt when he said 'young n dangerous, relax n adventurous]

Me: Fyi,Im a gal but was i still wanna noe is hw u get my no. So u gonan tell me?
W: Walao, sorila, i send random msg, got 2 guy, 1 maid n U.so can be msg pal?
Me: Haha, maid u also msg?U muz be damn bored.Anw hw old r u?Ure avoiding e qn.Up till now, u have yet to ans hw u got my no.
W:Weird huh, whether boy or gal, maid or boss, as long as u rply e msg, i rply bek.Been doin dis since jan,met all sorts of ppl.
Me: U sure gt a lot of free time on ur hands.Anw till nw,u havent ans any of my qns.Btw dis hobby of us kinda weird.
[By this time, Im annoyed tt e ass refused to ans any of my qns, particularly abt hw he got my bloody no in e 1st plc]

W:Luv e word, weird.depends la,im onli free sometimes.I get tense when im bored so mayb tts hw i got this idea. Human will b more cretive when they have less thing 2 survive huh,its e case of luck. {What e hell he was rantin abt in that 2nd line beats me}
Me: Huh? i dun get ur last msg but nvm i wanna slp. bye
W: Oh wanna slp,no tnx 2 me,but tnx to u la, nice to noe u.if boring2, gt prob or wanna tok, msg me k, gd nite.

HAHAHAHA. How fuckin weird is tt??The whole thing juz baffles me.
Firstly Im wondering who e heck this person is, who seriously have got nothing better to do than to msg random ppl whose numbers he pluck from somewhere. Its scary thinkin tt my no is out there in some freak's hp. And I have no clue hw he got it.
Secondly, another creepy thing is tt he msg me in e mornin juz nw askin if im free to tok tonite? Wahahah. I was shakin my head in disbelief n disgust. I mean e onli reason i even msg tt arse in e 1st plc was to ask who e fuck he is n hw he gt hold of my number. Now he considers me his friend. Jeez.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 12:31 PM

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Whoa its reali rainin cats n dogs today.Felt bored so i went online. Noticed I havent been reali doin tt lately either. Guez e World Wide Web kinda lost its appeal 4 me. I dun tok on MSN as much anymore either. Mayb wif skul being out n all, I dun see e need to go online everyday havin to research on some proj or sth.
And I havent been bloggin either. Not that anyone care anw. Nothing reali worth bloggin abt. Or mayb there is but Im juz too lazy. Cos i realized that once i get to blogger.com, wad i felt like writing suddenly slipped from my mind. Which most of e time it happens so yea. Dun even noe wad im gonna be bloggin abt now anw. Juz let e random thoughts flow i guez.
Oh yea I LOVE this new blogskin of mine haha. yea2 for those who do visit this ol boring blog of mine, u would have notice I change e skin like nobody's business. Well Im someone with a low boredom threshold so tt in simple Eng means I get bored easily. So I frequently go to blogskins.com to look for some nice, attractive lookin skins to liven the url www.lovecynic.blogspot.com. besides, its not like I got anything better to do now anw.
My plans to look for a job is currently at a standstill right now. Frankly my interest n desire to look for a job has dwindled considerably since skul ended. I mean yea i still want e moolah. but its like every single job i wanna apply for got something wrong wif it. well actuali more like it's nt exactly suitable 4 me la. I found one which was PERFECT but as luck would have had it, or rather more like e opposite of luck, it requires me to work full-time. Meaning i cant take e job cos im still schooling. bluek. It paid like 18 bucks for 3 hrs. How great is tt? That's like 6 bucks an hr. darn, juz my luck.
Out of boredom n cos I tot oh wad e hell, i was sitting nx to my sis on Sat, wif my mom tryin desperately to make her study, I juz said to my mom 'Eh why dun u pay me to teach Fatin (lil sis)? That way, i wont have to look for a job since its so bloody hard to find one tts suitable.
And my mom said ok. haha. granted it doesnt pay much. Ok la 100 bucks is alrite i guez. for now, since im on hols. Den she slipped in e part tt once skul starts, $100 will include my weekly allowance. So i did e maths n i tot 'hey, actuali its quite little leh' . But nevermind la, it is family after all. Nanti kene dgn my mom 'eh ungrateful lak ni, da kasi keje n duit, abeh nak mintak lebih'. So ok la amek je.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 3:39 PM

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FREEDOM AT LONG LAST

YAY!! At last, skul is done. finito. habis. I am free of e toils n burdens that come with having to go to skul everyday n engaging my brain matter in work. Now Im free. whee!! well, Im tinkin i will like e first few days of mindless activites but den i would feel bored. It's been a while since I got a lot of time on my hands. That time je, masa da bis projs, n there was an interval between e end of proj deadlines n exams, I was already goin a lil crazy having nth to do. Now i got 7 wks of break. Anw im tinkin of gettin a job. apart from obvious reason, ie: to support myself financially, its also to keep me from goin insane of boredom. Haiz but thing is i dunno wad work i wanna do. tinkin of getting a job in a factory like my bro did tt time, n juz slack n pack boxes or sth n get a significant amt of moolah but den, he got lobang tt time. n i dun. damn.

Anw Wed was my PR paper. i tink i did alrite in tt. wasnt too hard cs i studied hehe.managed to answer most of e qns so hopefully that will jack my grade up a notch. cos i wanna get at least a C for PR.high ambitions i noe =p but i have to be realistic here considering i got D+ for PR so far. shit ah, dunno hw i could have gotten D+. mayb tt BCF proj brought me down. Anyhoo, den Fri was e Comm Iss Paper. hah, this one i somehow didnt reali bother. haha. e day b4, i even went out wif Kin n Syaz to play pool. wahahaa. oh wellz.But hopefully i managed to write down some reasonable crap tt can get me e marks i need.

Yest aft e commiss paper, met up wif Syaz. slacked at her hse 1st b4 heading off to Esplanade in e evening. It was nice goin there again after so long. i have always find e place peaceful, albeit i dun reali like all e couples there. bluek.as usual, when me n syaz r there, we always engage in some philosophical thinking cos somehow e atmosphere suits. n syaz, lately wif her constant lamentations abt her singlehood, touched on e topic of boyfriends. Honestly, Im nt looking for a guy rite now. I mean yea, i admit sometimes i get jeles when my friends have guys or crushes that they tok endlessly abt n giggle whenever their names r mentioned.
but im jaded n cynical so that makes it all e much harder for me to snag a guy haha. besides, i have high standards. Anw im nt willing to compromise n lower them juz 4 e sake of sayin i have a guy. wads e point? i wont be happy. My thinking is that I would rather be alone than be wif someone who adores me but I have zilch interest in.
I read somewhere that in order to make it easier wad u want in someone, write down a list of all your wants, den choose 10 out of those as ur needs. So we did that, e qualities we r looking for in a guy haha. Some of them are pretty hilarious. But it was interesting alrite.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 11:40 AM

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