The funniest thing happened to me yesterday. Actuali in e beginning I was juz freaked haha. ok let me relate e story from e beginning.

Yest got a msg from Syaz whether I wanted to eat lunch out wif her cs she's home alone n she desperately yearns company. The gal's going crazy stayin at home alone wif no one to tok to except for her fish hehe. anw since i was already eatin lunch tt time, we decided to meet up for dinner instead. So met her outside old woodlands n ta pao food n we went to syaz's plc to eat.slack n watched tv there for a while b4 makin a move to Causeway Point to buy seok fun's belated prezzie.

Ya so it was almost 9 by then.surprisingly most of e shops wanna close already which was weird to me cs there are a still a lot of ppl milling ard n shopping. Anw me n syaz went to several different shops lookin for a suitable prez till we came to this one shop. there were these grp of chi-lookin guys who were also at e same shop. Anw, i heard them speakin in Indon or sth so i tot they were some Indon-chi guys. Saw sth there that was reasonably priced for my budget but me n syaz proceeded to go to other shops first to browse. Now comes e part where i get scared haha

So there we were juz walkin along minding our own business when suddenly out of e blue, from behind me, this guy came up n tok to me. I was a lil shocked cos he came out of nowhere n asked for my name. Instinctively i grabbed hold of dear syaz haha. He was pestering noe my name n askin for my no & telling me tt Im pretty n whatnot. And Im like erm erm... cos honestly I was kinda creeped out la.
Syaz was desperately tryin to keep her amusement to herself n there I was floundering for words to say.In e end, in my bid to get rid of him, I juz gave him n my no n walked off hurriedly. Ok la make tt ran away haha. Syaz was like ooh u got a new boyfriend. bluek.
See la its always e case wif me u noe. Whenever I say Im stayin off guys n no longer gonna be bothered wif them, there they are.jeez. I had juz made a resolution to stay away from guys cos they are a juz a waste of time, money n energy. And what juz had to happen? I get hit on by a creepy guy who looks Chi but speaks like an Indon n says he's from JB. huh?Wadever. I could barely understand wad he says la. Syaz said that actuali she noticed him following us ard since we left e shop. I guez i was juz too blur to realize.

And yest he called me up a few mins aft me n syaz walked off. Askin where in e shopping mall i was n if he can send me home n if i got a bf. aiyoh. Stalker much?*rolls eyes* I lied that yea i oredi got a bf so he might as well not call me cs my bf will be jealous haha.
Den when i reached home, he called..twice.Actuali he msg me 1st but i refused to reply. for wad? go lookin for trouble onli.Yea la who e heck ask me to go give my no in e 1st plc? bluek. Nvm i take comfort in e fact that i wont see him again so i got nth to worry abt.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 11:09 AM

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I have never been the kind to indulge in contemplative, reflective thoughts where you ponder e meaning of life & ur purpose in life & whatnot. Im not e philosophical sort who thinks beyond what's happening in e here n now. I've juz come to realize that I get touchy n uncomfortable when ppl ask me what i wanna do in e future. Cos honestly I have no clue. The future is like this far-away entity that i will deal wif once e time comes. not that im e sort to juz drift thru life, mind u. Its juz that Im still undecided abt most of my plans for e future, what job i wanna take after diploma, if im gonna go Uni or what age i wanna settle down n wadever. Cos truthfully, Im scared. Of what e future holds. What if i make plans n none of them gets realized?Im frigging scared that i still have no idea what i wanna do when there r ppl ard me who have searing ambitions n are pursuing them wif passion. That's why i envy n admire these ppl who noe wad they want n go after it.

So wads e whole point of this entry? I dunno. Am i alone in feeling this way? I hope not haha. I dun think so anw. Cos im pretty sure there r a lot of other ppl in my shoes, who have yet to noe their goals. Hopefully I will noe wad i want soon...

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 3:06 PM

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John Mayer - Love song for no one

Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are fadedA
nd all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here Get here

Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?
oh no way

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
I'm so tired of being alone
So hurry up and get hereY
ou'll be so good
You'll be so good for me

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 12:08 AM

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The last few days have been spent juz lazing ard at home. Honestly I dun quite noe wad to do wif all e free time tt i have on my hands now. Granted I still have to study for e exams i have nx wk. but i onli started on that today. And i got distracted haha.
Got bored reading thru PR notes and went online instead. And guez wad's e thing that got me so engrossed? hehe. It's these photo-editing softwares i dl from e installation cd i got from buying e digicam. I was so happily editing my pics n playin ard wif e features haha. Now i noe y some ppl get a kick outta these photo-editing tools. cos they sure are pretty addictive.haha

Anw I wanna get a job. Preferably wif flexible hrs n a high paying one doing sth relatively easy. Idealistic i noe but hey i can always hope rite? =p
I can certainly use e moolah.Cos i dun wanna keep depending on e money from my bank acc n pretty soon that will reach its depleting point. Like e state of e savings i keep at home. Anyone got lobang, share wif me la k? hehe

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 11:40 PM

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Continue....

haha juz nw paused e story rite? so now continuation.

Anw yest went to e Creative IT fair in jurong. n guez wad i bought? hehe
A DIGICAM!! YAY! IT'S MY NEW BABY!! im gonna treasure n guard it wif my life, after wad happened e last time.

anw partly why i bought it in e 1st place was to redeem myself in my parents' eyes cos i noe its my fault i lose e 1st cam n i had to somehow make it up to them. actuali wanted to buy a cam onli aft e break after i work n i get paid. but i figured when else can i get an offer u noe? so yea i bought it 1st. den i will juz earn it bek later la haha. n my parents dun show it but i noe they r happy that i got it 4 them. they spent e whole nite yest twiddling wif e digicam n tryin to figure out how it works. when they reached home, i told them 'nah, ur present'. lol

So now all's gd. hehe. i got a new baby n u noe wad? it feels good to give something out of e goodness of ur heart haha. yea2 i have always been a selfish n lokek type so once in a while, splurge on ppl, its nice

And im happy 4 syaz sweetie too cos she managed to convince her dad to buy her a digital camcorder she had always yearned for. yay now kin says we will both be narcissists n take pics everywhere we go haha.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 9:12 PM

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The day wif e unexpected string of events

Yest went to meet some of my grp mates for printing of feat mag. but of coz, everyone was late.like duh.so i wasnt even mad at them cos im all too used to it oredi.i myself came a lil late cs i knew i was gonan be e 1st one there. but e interesting part was e journey to city hall mrt, our meeting point.

As usual, when i go to town,i'll take 190 cs its a straight bus route 4 me. well yest in e bus, i sat at e back row wif this indian couple.initially, they were juz tokin ah. den it escalated into arguing. den e guy began toking to e gf in raised voices. n there i was sitting nx to them, staring out e window, tryin to mind my own business.i was like 'great, y am i stuck here of all places?'

As if tt wasnt bad enuf, u noe wad e guy did next? he bloody hit e gerl man. slapped her on her face like numerous times. i was appalled la, thinkin wad e hell.i looked at e guy's face n it was damn scary i tell u.he got this lunatic look in his eyes n was like seemingly outta control.he tampar e gal rite n he nearly hit me la, tt asshole.

Siak ah, da la nak tampar pompuan. abeh nak do it in a bus, in front of public sak. laki bastard tul. n i dun mean to sound racist here. but well when indian guys tok, they somehow sound scary. n when they get mad, it gets even freakier cos u reali get scared outta ur wits cos u dunno wad e hell they gonna do next. e gal was obviously crying ah.dammit man. wad kinda man r u to hit a gerl like tt? shithead.

wah if i got a bf n he dares to hit me like tt,i will kick his balls till he cant have no children no more sak. even my dad dun hit me.siak betul. nasib ah got his fren who intervened n sat between e couple. by tt time everyone was wondering wad e commotion was all about n was staring at them ah. even e bus driver was like 'Oi , oi. wads going on?'

I was so glad tt they got off on e stop b4 me. cos if not, i dunno hw i would have tried to squeeze between a madman n a crying gal.totally awkward situation 2b in would be like an understatement.

Anw, tt was in e earlier part of e day. after tt bus ride from hell, i went to meet my frenz.they still had to finish e layout n all.i left early cs gotta go meet syaz. promised to meet her at 3 but ended up in jurong east at 4 instead.cos i took e longer mrt route. aiyah me n mrt dun mix wad.i dun even take mrt la so i can be forgiven 4 being blur when it comes to e routes n all. but funny thing is, in e mrt,it didnt feel like such a long journey like it usually does. i duno y. n i tink i was high on coffee or sth from e proj meeting at starbucks tt i felt this feeling like i couldnt care less abt anyone, like i dun care if i was rude to anyone or sth. it feels weird but liberating as well haha.nw u noe y i dun drink coffee. it makes me act funny.

In e mrt got this annoyin kid la who banged on e glass panel, u noe e place where ppl lean agst e door tt one. i was e one sitting nx to it la. n of coz e banging irritated me like heck. usually i would juz roll my eyes in annoyance n let it be. but somehow yest, i didnt even tink twice b4 i tapped e boy n said to him 'Eh boy, dun knock2 ok?' in a pissed off voice. wahahaha.funny sia. Prior to that got this nyonya wanted to lean her leg onto mine. she was perching her butt onto e glass panel also la n was irritating me wif her leg there. aiyoh but this one i had to respect a bit ah cs she older wad. juz nw small one can bully hahaha. anw i was tempted to like say 'Hello, can u move tt bloody leg of urs somewhere else? cos my leg's oredi here. there's no room for two'. but lucky i didnt cs i would prob have gotten into a fight of my own lol.n she moved away out of her own accord. mayb e pissed off vibes i was sending out got to her.

Actuali got more to tell la but entry too long oredi hehe. so laterz...

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 11:33 AM

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Victory Dance

*fAAi does a lil victory dance* Whooweee!! Jumps around in joy.

Yay Im done. wif Pr. wif TV. wif Webd. Onli left subbing n printin for Feat. Den Yippeeeee!!!
Whew. This semester's been tough. Im glad its finally coming to an end. Left exams at e end of March n 1 Apr. Den slackin for 7 weeks. 7 weeks of not thinkin, not doin work.AAAh Bliss. Cant hardly wait

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 12:21 PM

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This week has been the worse week of my life.

First on mon, i had a fight wif my mom. dun even noe y she suddenly lashed out at me n said i was rude when i didnt even do anything. she was askin me wad time i was goin out to skul e nx day n she obviously wanted me to do sth should i go to skul late. so i juz asked her la, wad do u wanna me to do actuali. juz tell me la so tt i can watch tv in peace. but noo,she didnt ans my qn n when i didnt ans her qn either, she ended up screamin her head off at me n sayin how ive been so rude lately n she even wanted to hit me for goodness sake. she even told me nt to tok to her like i tok to my frenz. like duh, as if i can tok to her like a fren. far from it la.i dun even tell her anything abt my life, reali.
actuali all e while, it felt like a surreal experience cs its been a while since i fought wif my mom. den aft tt, i guez it hit me. den i got upset n was like frigging pissed la cos i didnt do anything to warrant tt kidna treatment la. i cried myself to sleep cs i was so fuckin mad. den now da ok la. we act like normal.

Den yest something reali stupid happened. i dunno how but i lost e digicam tt my dad lend me. n we barely had it for a wk la for goodness sake. the irony is tt i didnt even take it our from my bag n use it la,tts e thing. i was abt to take it out from my bag to show elle n feli to take some pics for e choc proj when i found its nt in my bag. of coz panic like siao ah.
i tried to recall but honestly i cant remember anything cos i didnt even touched tt friggin digicam la aft i put inside my bag. mayb it fell outta my bag without me realising it. but wa lao eh. reali sianz man. how cam i be soo blur? i could have put it inside e bag that got a zip on it but nooo, i had to put it in e plc without e zip where it can easily fall out.
seriously felt like banging my head against e wall for being such an idiot. i felt so bad cos my dad juz bought e memory card so tt e cam would have more space to take pics in it. n now its all gone down e drain. felt so guilty. i mean even tho we got e cam for free, still..
of coz my mom blamed me. well its my fault la but i felt bad enuf already without having her breathing down my neck n nagging incessantly rite? dammnit. felt pissed again. cried before i went to bed again last nite.
so yea i guez u can say im an emotional wreck nowadays. den combined wif pms. n wad do u get? a frigging hormonal crying whiny pathetic me.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 11:56 AM

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Havent been bloggin lately. No time, duh. wad wif all my assignments n projs' deadlines within days of each other. i hardly have e luxury to sit here n blog abt wads goin on in my life. not tt there's anything to reali write abt in e 1st plc.

My life has been one mundane routine of goin to skul, go for lessons, n den go 4 proj meetings n den back home. hardly have time to go out. n i dun even reali feel like going out cs i dun have e energy.

Anw, on Mon, finally met up wif my dear frenz who i havent seen in a while, SyaZ n Kin. went to Toa Payoh Starbucks where we juz sat n chilled n catch up on each others' lives. it was great seeing them again. in e mornin, bumped into nura who looked tired cs of her involvement in e conference thingy. i guez we all are exhausted n wiped out from skl nowadays.

Yea, anw now guez wad? in the space of 1 day, i got a mp3 player n a digicam all at e same time. hehe. how great is tt?woohoo!! now can listen to music whenever i want n take pixxies.

The mp3 player i bought from travis who i have yet to pay haha. gonna pay him later. den e digicam my mom got for free cos she suscribed to starhub maxonline. so yup yay nw i got new tech thingies to play wif.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 8:55 PM

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