Haha 2 entries all within mins of each other. oh well i juz feel like bloggin so.. Anw e purpose of this other entry for e day is tt i noticed tt i speak a lot of Eng lately. duh of coz. masscomm wad rite?if dun speak eng, den speak wad. but its like my mly is like so not in use, well sometimes la of coz i use but seldom. ok e point is i tink i converse too much in Eng tt yest while watching tv, my bro suddenly said to me 'ckp melayu la' n im like 'cannot la, nt used to it already'.

Its kinda sad tt me being a mly is so averse to using n speakin her own mother tongue. but im nt averse to it reali. its juz over e yrs, its been in my veins to speak eng. nt tt im membanggakan e westerners or anything n lookin down on my own kind. i gotta admit lately my mly is gettin more teruk n cikgu saripah would be ashamed of me rite now. haha. n to tink i used to take Higher mly. ive always been gd in languages in pri n sec skul, both Eng n Mly. so ive nvr bothered to studu during the exams.

Some ppl might tink tt ala si dek ni, speakin konon. mentang2 Eng A1 ke pe,nak ckp eng byk2. but mmg pe, im in masscomm. suma kawan ciner. takkan nak ckp melayu kan? sometimes i also feel like speakin mly.mly pasar2 kind la. nt e mly baku2 kind. cos my mly in tt category is like so far gone , i woudl feel weird using it. but how? later my frenz dun understand me. n usually among my mly frenz also i speak Eng cos well, like i said, da biaser so nak tukar susah ah.

I remember tt time me n syaz went to Jb so of coz kat saner, ciner pun tau ckp melayu kan? but still over there, my tongue biler nak ckp to e msian ppl also speak eng. n syaz was like sayin to me 'Adapt, Faai. we r in jb now u noe so u can speak mly n they understand'. haiz tapi susah ah kadang2. its like in one sentence, i will speak 8 words out of 10 in eng. so u get wad i mean?

Ok la mula dari skrg, saya akan bertutur dlm bahasa mly more often. haha see la. ok dari hari ini, saya akan bercakap dlm bahasa ibunda saya lebih frequently. aiyoh ok ok. wads frequently in mly? lebih ...lebih...dammit. i forgot e word for 'more often' in mly. aah lebih kerap. yes tts e word haah. bluek. see how hard it's gonna be 4 me?

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3 more weeks to e finish line. 3 more weeks of mind-draining, energy-consuming pile of work load to get done. 3 more weeks of complaining, whinin n bitching to do. n then it will all be over. or mayb there's e exams to worry abt. but tt will come later so not gonan bother abt it now.

The last few wks since e start of skul has been hellish. i have nvr felt so exhausted all e time. i did a to-do list of all e assignments n projs due n sometimes i tink im in denial so tt i wont feel overwhelmed by all e work cut out for me. my life has revolved onli ard skul n if i were to tink harder abt it, it would be kinda sad that i got no life so i prefer not to dwell on tt. jeez n i remember me sayin not too long ago tt i like being busy, i like having things to do. now im not so sure. oh wherefore art thou hols? how i long for u once more.

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SICK & TIRED

Im sick and tired. of skul. of assignments. of projs. of deadlines. of everything. im exhausted n drained of energy. Nuff said.

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Yesterday went to Jb. Suddenly my dad exclaim out of e blue if anyone wants to follow him go Jb n im like Yea sure haha, anything u get out of e hse. so sianz of doin skl work n stayin at home. besides if my dad were to come along,i can always ask him 4 money to go shoppin haha. one perk of goin out wif ur parents is e financial benefits hehe.

Anw he wanted to go Kotaraya which i have nvr been to b4. n bluek, when we reach e plc, im like erm is this it? this is kotaraya? wad e hell is there here? so den off we walk to City Square cs its much nicer, duh. its like e Heeren or Far east plaza in Msia.

e 1st time i went there was wif syaz n her fren, siti. nw i noe my way ard there haha n e plc didnt overwhelm me as much as it did e 1st time cos e place is huge.n haha for someone who reali dunno her directions very well, my family was depending on me to lead e way cs i went there b4. haha e irony. but yea im pretty gd ok at leading? i surprised myself cs i reali did noe my way lol.

Yay 4 me too cs i got to buy a nice yellow top n a bag, all courtesy of pleading wif my dad hehe. quite tiring even tho we onli went there for like 4 hrs. mayb cos of all e walking from kota raya to city square n den to all e shops. my bro was like damn i wanna get so much stuff n he seems to be enamoured wif some of e minahs in msia, sayin they r jambu haha. geez my bro. i hope he dun go off to marry some minah msia. nt tt im against msians or anything.

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This has been 1 hella of a week. Everyday is soo tiring n long, especially on Wed & Thur which was yesterday. Tues have always been long so im quite used to tt since its lecture day. Tue nite i felt grumpy cos there were like a gazillion stuff to do for PR the next day for tutorial like the presentation n PR plan, both of which i onli found out on e day itself so it was a rush like mad to complete them.
On Wed of coz there was e PR presentation which kinda suck cos my grp didnt reali ans e qn properly. but e sucky part was tt our floppy had sth wrong wif it or sth or e class comp was fuckin slow. so it was like one loooong delay b4 we can even open e bloody ppt. by tt time ASS got impatient n asked us to fix e prob so we had to forego our turn n let others present 1st. den tt morning i found out we got a new Webd online mag proj. aiyah n all of us in my grp r clueless in IT. we all basically suck at it. worse still we got mikey. he's a nice guy n all but prior groupings wif him have left most of my grp mates frustrated wif him cs he doesnt reali do his work. bluek.

Den on Thur, i had intended to skip Feat 2 but well, i finally didnt in e end. which was a gd thing cos aft e consultation wif penelope during class tut, we all decided to buck up cos our grp was severely lagging behind by 2 wks so we all made a resolution to improve our work n hurry wif all e stuff tt we gotta do. The morning we got our grade for the previous tv interview proj which was kinda slipshod n apparently wasnt up to standard. tts y we reali gotta do well for e nx chat/demo proj.

Aargh!!! All these are making me feel so drained out of energy. Last nite i was sooo exhausted i slept at 9 sth and onli woke up at 6. den went bek to sleep aft morning prayers. Thank god there was no skul today or i would have collapsed from exhaustion.

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Im fuckin hungry but im too lazy to eat. i got a terrible headache though i have no idea y.i was pissed at my laptop juz now cos it was fuckin slowwwww.n now im gonna go off n watch desperate housewives. AAAArghhh!!

Hormones are causing havoc rite now so nt in a very gd mood as u can tell. will update when i feel better....

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 9:59 PM

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Me & Elle




Me, Nura & Syaz






Elle & Travis

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2day's Chinese New Year so HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR to all those celebratin it. altho 2b honest,i doubt many of my frenz r gonan be happy celebrating CNY anw. yest i asked elle n travis whether they like CNY n they answered wif a resounding 'NO' haha. i had kinda guessed from the e way they were grumbling abt having to go visiting n eating reunion dinner wif their family. i assumed e onli up side of e whole thing is receiving ang pows lol.

The up side for me is that this wk i onli come to skul for 2 days! hehe yippee!! n we juz ended our 2 wk break not so long ago hahaha. its like holidays r abound this semester but den im still stuck at home doin all the skul assignments n projs due very2 soon. nt tt im reali complainin cs i dun reali wanna go out n be tempted to buy stuff n indulge myself in material pursuits when i dun reali have e financial means haha.

U noe i tot i was broke but den i realized tt i did have some money left hidden somewhere hehe. yay. but nooo,i will NOT touch tt money. cos i have to save for a rainy day. yes, gd faai. be thrifty like u once were n DONT spend unnecessarily.

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He's freaking HOTT aint he?

Haha for e uninitiated, he's e gardener from Desperate Housewives. Super sizzlin keeyuuuteee. lol

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Today I felt sooo freakin lazy. I procrastinated on doin my Feat 1 article which is due luckily on 14 Feb so tt gives me time. lucky 4 me its nt gonna be published, if not its due on Mon n ive done nought, nada, zilch. Besides, i didnt reali like e topic to begin wif: backpacking, dun interest me. Anw i emailed my interviewee some more qns cos penelope wanted me to be more SPECIFIC. she keeps reiterating tt point over n over again in her comments for my Feat 1 outline. so mafan le.

but Yay im so glad im not that lazy cos i managed to start on tt 1500 word essay for the SYMC thingy. im 1/3 there. Yippee!! hehe. juz crappin for e time being cs i have no references to support my arguments in the essay as of now haha. Pr media kit is almost done, juz left wif feli's part which hopefully she will email me by tmr cos im compiling. u noe i realized i got like a gazillion things to do, most of which i had conveniently forgotten haha. thank god i remembered sometime this wk tt i had tt 1500 word essay to do. if not...haha.i would have been so blissfuly ignorant.

Yea anw had PR make up tutorial class on wed. n surprise surprise ASS was quite nice n believe it or not, i actuali found myself liking her haha. e usual 3 hours boring lesson was shortened to half e time hehe. i was a bit shocked. she told e class tt she took our feedback VERY SERIOUSLY and becos she didnt wanna risk being called a nag way before her time, she said she wont lecture us to e point of insanity anymore n wont drag e class.haahha which is of coz gd news 4 us cos god noes how incredibly sleep-inducing her classses can be.

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I lurve all these poem. They kick ass hahahaha. Enjoy =)

Evil Love Poems

Love may be beautiful, love may be bliss.
But I only slept with you, because I was pissed.

I thought that I could love no other.
Until, that is, I met your brother.

Roses are red, violets are blue,
Sugar is sweet and so are you.
But the roses are wilting, the violets are dead,
the sugar bowl's empty and so is your head.

Of loving beauty you float with grace.
If only you could hide your face.

Kind, intelligent, loving and hot.
This describes everything you are not.

I want to feel your sweet embrace.
But don't take that paper bag off of your face.

I love your smile, your face, and your eyes.
Damn, I'm good at telling lies!

My darling, my lover, my beautiful wife:
Marrying you screwed up my life.

I see your face when I am dreaming.
That's why I always wake up screaming.

My love, you take my breath away.
What have you stepped in to smell this way?

My feelings for you no words can tell.
Except for maybe "go to hell".

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Tomorrow kinda suck cos i gotta go to skul for insipid PR make-up lessons to replace e one we gonna miss during CNY later. damn i always hate ASS n Pr. n its farkin 3 hours for goodness sake, spare me e torture of having to sit thru 3 friggin hrs of ASS's boring ramblings. tt class ALWAYS makes me wanna go to sleep.

U noe last wk during e Spore youth n media conference,i went to all these workshops rite?n one of em happened to be tokin on giving bek to e community or sth. n u noe wad?haha suddenly i dunno wad happen but e idea of me volunteering struck me out of e blue.i was left wondering where tt sudden prick of conscience came from cos normally i would balk at e tot of volunteering out of e goodness of my heart haha. yea2 as u can see, im nt very giving or generous wif my time or my money. i dunno, mayb i dun give myself enuf credit lol.

Remember those days bek in sec skul when we were forced to do Community service whether we want to or not? yea i grumble everytime i gotta paste a fake smile on my face n ask 4 donations during flag day. n yet here i am, suddenly feeling like volunteering haha. oh well have yet to register for any organisation tho. have to wait n see..

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