My bro juz bought the Eminem 'Encore' cd n i lurrrve it. i love EMINEM!
He's farkin hot! HOT!! haha yea2 i guez deep down i dig the bad boy type.
Anw his songs r playin on repeat mode now. Call me crazy but i love this song by Eminem on his cd called 'Crazy in Love'. its sweet ... in a twisted kinda way lol.

Title: Crazy In Love

[Other voice] You always thought that I was doing alright
But nothing that was through a night
But I'm crazy over you Crazy Over you Crazy Over you
Let me go crazy crazy Over youuuuuuuuu

[Verse 1] Can't you see what you do to me baby?

You make me crazy, you make me act like a maniac.
I'm like a lunatic, you make me sick
You truly are the only one who can do this to me
You just make me get so crazy.
I go skitzo, I get so insane I just go skitzophrenic
One minute I want to slit your throat The next I want sex.
You make me crazy, the way we act like 2 maniacs in the sac
We fuck like 2 jackrabbits And maybe that's a bad habit.
Cuz the next day we're right back at it In the same exact pattern
What the fuck is the matter with us
We can't figure out if it's Lust or it's love
What's sad is what's attracting us to each other
They say that every man grows up to marry his own mother.
Which would explain why you're such a motherfucking bitch
But I stay and still stick it out with you even though I just hit you today
But you deserve it you hit me first and provoked me to choke you
Just cuz I came home late last night crawled in bed and I woke you.
But if there's one thing about you I admire its, baby,
Because you stay with me, maybe, because you're as crazy as I am
Cuz when I look at you
I can see an angel in your eyes But if I look deeper inside I see your freakish little side.
Like a devil in disguise, You're always full of surprises A
lways pullin' devises Out your personal vibrators and dildos
You fucked yourself so much You barely feel those anymore
You're only 24 but you're plenty more now.
Sure than those other little hoes
Who just act like little girls
Like they're in middle school still
You're crazy sexy cool, chillin
You play your position You never step out of line
Even though I stay in your business You've always kept out of mine.
I wonder whats on your mind
Sometimes they say love is blind
Maybe that's why the first time I dotted your eye You ain't see a sign.
[with Chorus]
Or maybe you did Maybe you like me and stuff
Maybe cuz we're crazy in loooove
[Chorus] Crazy Over you Crazy Over you
Let me go crazy crazy Over youuuuuuuuu

[Verse 2] You're the ink to my paper Where my pen is to my pad
The moral, the very fiber The whole substance to my rap.
You are my reason for being
The meaning of my existence
If it wasn't for you I would never be able to spit this
These sentences I do wit me I am me
Is you rely on me as much as I rely on you to inspire me like you do.
You provide me the lighterfluid to fuel my fire
You're my entire supply Gas, the match, the igniter.
The only way that I am able to stay so stable Is you're the legs to my table
If you were to break I'd fall on my face.
But I'm always going to make you feel I don't need you as much as I really need you
So you don't use it to your advantage. But you're essential to me
You're the air I breathe
I believe if you ever leave me I'd probably have no reason to be.
You are the Kim to my Marshall
You're the Slim to my Shady
The Dre to my Eminem
The Elaina to my Hailey.
You are the word I am looking for when I'm trying to describe how I feel inside
And the right one just won't come to my mind.
You're like the pillar that props me up
The beam that supports me
The bitch who never took half, The wife who never divorced me.
You're like the root to my evil
You let my devil come out me
You let me beat the shit out you Before you beat the shit out me.

[with Chorus] And no matter how much Too much is never enough
Maybe cuz we're crazy in loooove
[Chorus] I'm Crazy Over you Crazy Over you
Let me go crazy crazy Over youuuuuuuuu

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Progress for Feat 2 outline is goin ok i suppose. so far got all down except for interviewees' observations n the organisation of e whole feature. gonna work on tt later when i get bek from my aunt's hse for kenduri arwah my atuk.

Speakin of my atuk,i dunno. mayb its juz me creeping myself out but tt time masa nak tido, i couldnt sleep so i was like tossing n turning in bed. den i was juz thinkin abt my grandad n e word death in e same sentence n suddenly e fan also went dead. i was like damn did my bro go n put it on timer mode again? now i gotta go down from my top bunk n switch it on again. dah la there's sth wrong wif e fan remote control. i need to press on it like a gazillion times b4 it can work tt i would always give up halfway n juz sleep without on-ing e fan.

Anw i digress. where was i? yup e part when e fan went dead. so i grudgingly got down n tried to switch e fan bek on. i nagged at my bro n asked him y e heck he put it on timer mode n wad he said freaked me out a lil. cos he told me tt he didnt. so y did e fan suddenly switch off like tt on its own? erm kinda scary. furthermore e switch was still on. so err after tt i got kinda weirded out. nvm probably juz my imagination anw. but lately quite a number of things have happened tts been kinda unexplicable, to say e least. hmm...

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I lurve this song.

Ashanti- Only U

Man i didnt noe Ashanti is so damn hot. she's sizzlin in this vid i tink. nvr tot she was hot b4 tho. haha i sound like a lesb but hey beauty shd always be appreciated rite? :p

Anw have juz started on my Feat 2 outline yest nite aft much procrastinatin. i mean yea i got e interviews down pat during e 1st 2 days of e week. i was juz lazy to reali sit down n organise all e info. initially felt kinda overwhelmed cos of the whole barrage of info i got which were mainly a lot of repetition. didnt quite noe wad my angle shd be n all. oh well juz gotta do wad i gotta do. besides its nt as if my article gonan be published anw so its onli e outline. *voice in my head jumps in* yea onli e outline but its worth 30 freakin %. yea2 bluek. as u can tell, im tokin to myself even in my blog.

Break week my ass la. soo many freakin things to do. this feat 2 outline. den feat 1 article. den PR media kit which it conveniently at the back of my mind n i wont even bother thinkin abt it till i have done my feat2. den tt ASS woman, acronym 4 a certain lecturer, resent my grp's PR tut thingy n ask us to do it again. bluek. aaah cant be bothered la 4 nw.

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Had tt Spore Youth n media conference thing juz nw. didnt reali feel like goin to skul.its supposed 2b a break week wad. bluek. anw wasnt payin attention to e speeches given by e guests much. was closing my eyes n tryin to sleep but farhan n skye tokin abt maple in e row behind me prevented me from doin tt. den af tt went to e different lect theatres to listen to all these workshop presentations from students. some were gd, others were juz skimpy n onli touched on e surface level e topics. didnt reali find em useful. anw i onli stayed for e 1st parallel session cs i was too sleepy to stay on for e 2nd one. brian lee said tt e exam qns gonna come out from e conference n i didnt even reali bother to take notes. i did take down some but i doubt i would reali look at them come exam time later. hmm hope tt wont be my downfall in Comm issues grade later.

Anw yest went to Mt Elizabeth hosp to do e interview with the lasik doc. hmm dun quite noe hw to describe e interview. i guessed this was e 1st interview i had tt wasnt all smooth sailing. e doctor was curtly nice. i noe tt sounds paradoxical but yea tt seems to be e vibe i got from him. i went into e office n he seemed to be nt very eager to ans my qns when i asked them. he was like 'cant u find all these info on the website?' n im like yea i can but e thing is i need to come here n get quotes from u, tts y i have to do this interview. but i juz paste on a smile n juz began askin e qns i came there to ask. but e gd thing is tt i guez in his efforts to try to give me all e info i want, he gave me this bk he wrote on abt eyecare tts like 12.90 or sth for free. yup he gave it to me FOC. n he even asked his receptionist to print out some pamphlets tt will be useful 4 me. so tts y i say he's curtly nice. n when time 4 me to leave, he smiled. yup obviously glad to get rid of me haha. well wadever, as long as i get e info i need.

The 1st interview wif lisa's fren who went thru lasik went much better. e guy even bought me a drink haha. i offered to pay n he's like no need la,ure juz a student lol. now i onli need to organise all e info i got n compile them into a reasonable feat outline. haiz n i still need to edit e rest of my grp mates' feat outlines as well.

Btw e song playin on my blog rite now is ma fave song of e moment.

EMINEM-MOCKINGBIRD

Very touching. i lurve it when eminem does these slow ballad type kinda songs. but its always abt his daughter haha. well at least as bad boy as he is, he does have a soft side

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Break Week

This is e break week but i dun tink it's reali gonna be a break anw cos there r a lot of assignments due, juz tt we r freed from e burden of having to drag our asses to skul everyday. it sounds like im complaining rite? but actuali 2b honest, i dun reali mind cs it keeps me occupied. better busy den sit at home n do nothing, rotting my brain cells away.

Anw 2day im gonna go to harbour front 4 an interview. yup all e way there. cos im gonna go interview this guy who'd gone thru lasik. its 4 feat outline 2. tnx lis 4 giving me e tip. den tmr im gonna go to Mt Elizabeth hosp to interview e doctor who actuali does lasik surgery. eurgh, i hate hospitals. but well nvm will grit my teeth n juz go thru wif it.

U noe nw i tink i noe how reporters n journalists feel when they r got their contacts n they get interviews n stuff. cos i felt so excited n exhilarated when i got e contacts n secured interviews. haha. cos i felt so bummed earlier when both of e contacts i got didnt pick up their cellphones when i called. i was like damn, wad am i gonan do?i got like a wk to finish this up n ive yet to get interviews. thank god i got them in e end. hope e whole thing goes well.

In other news, my dad juz bought a new printer! yipee n u noe wad e best thing? it has a dual function as a photocopy machine hehe. tts like soo cool rite? cos ive been complaining tt e old printer sux, printing all my notes n assignments like shit. all blotted ink n such. but my dad said tt i shdnt use e photocopy machine too much cs it will waste e ink which cost a lot so its better n cheaper to juz go to e shop downstairs to photostat stuff. haha wad onli my dad. buy n den onli use sparingly. but he got a point la, wont wanna waste too much ink. i use a lot oredi printin my bloody lect n tutorial notes every week.

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BORED N SIANZ...

felt pissed at someone juz nw. man stupid asshole. reali damn arse. wont go into details here but let's juz say he's juz someone i wont bother to contact anymore after this. *rolls eyes at e insipidness of e creature who's such an irritating piece of dickhead*.

had a long chat on e fone wif this guy fren of mine. havent met him in person yet but apparently im like one of e few gerls he considers his gd frenz which i tink is kidna weird cs he havent even met me n yet he considers me tt way. hmm anw. cant believe i tok ,or rather to be more precise, he tok for abt an hr. basically he was tellin me abt his ex who he still cant get over wif aft 6 mths. he was basically complainin n sounding like a victim la. i mean usually when he calls, he will irritate me la so i call him an asshole, annoyin n other names yg along those lines yg sewaktu dengannye.
but today surprisingly i didnt. but tt still dun make me feel like he was too pathetic sounding. i mean yea i have nvr been in love so i suppose i wouldnt noe wad or how i would feel like to have my heart broken n smashed into a gazillion pieces. but one thing i do noe is tt e more u keep obsessing abt it,e more it wont go away n e more u wont be able to get over e whole thing . i should noe. i obsessed abt a guy not too long ago although it kinda feels like eons ago. anw yea i didnt realize i was in this vicious cycle of keep talkin abt him n cos of tt, i cant get over him. but once my frenz point it out to me, i came to my senses n after deleting ALL contact, i find tt i can move on. at last.

But to be honest, i tink my frenz' desire to have a special someone in their lives is rubbing off on me cs i feel like i want a bf too. wahahaha. oh gawd. wad e hell is happenin to me? jeez. n now when i tink i want a guy who can layan me when im bored, i tink i finally may have found a so called crush,i dun wanna admit it. yup im truly a confused messed up individual. i was abt to call myself a bitch but nahh. im too nice. haha riiite. e reason y im in denial is tt this guy is juz like wayy too annoyin la. he even admits he loves teasing e hell outta me n irritating me.it gives him a kick. so how can i possibly like someone like tt rite? crazy. but den sometimes he's nice unexpectedly. damn.

Nvm its juz a short momentary confused phase. i will plead temporary insanity. i probably am anw, judgin from e way i supposedly tok to myself in my sleep

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I tink im slowly losing my mind haha. i have been sleep-talking apparently,if i were to believe my bro who told me tt day tt he woke up to find me conversing animatedly to e ceiling. i sleep at e top bunk of e double deck bed so i suppose my imaginary fren is hovering on e ceiling. yup a scary thought that truly freaked me out. i was like oh gawd, tts sooo creepy. da la tt time i woke up to find long, red scratch marks on my arm n now this. either im too stressed or im juz goin nuts. haha omg. nvm. tts y e saying tt says ignorance is bliss is very true cos i would rather not noe all this things to be honest.

Talking abt ignorance is bliss, this reminds me of e Appreciating lit works lesson on mon when Desmond Wee mentioned sth abt having a choice between the blue or e red pill. u noe e matrix? u choose e red pill n u stay in lala land where everything is happy n ure in ur comfort zone. but if u were to opt for e blue one,u will see all the horrific atrocities. me, i would rather not noe...

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Been ultra busy lately, swamped wif skul work n i feel so damn tired n sleepy most of e time.Many of my classmates feelin sick n taking MC. it seems tt suddenly all e work is piling up. they say this semester is slacker than e last one but still i feel like there is so much work to do. haiz...

Anw mon was my bday n it was spent in e company of my dearest gal pals, syaz n kin. it seems like ages since i met those 2 darlings of mine. anw they gave me a bday treat n paid for e movie tt we watched together at GV marina. watched 'Meet the Fockers'. damn hilarious n full of sex-related jokes n sexual connotations abound. haha e lil boi in e movie is soo cute too. e way he said 'asssss hooolleeee'. wahahaha so freakin cute n funny. anw aft tt didnt relai hang out cos tmr was a skul day n we had to get up early. kin went off 1st while syaz n i headed off to e esplanade a while cos its been eons since we've been there. wanted to find a spot to sit but e place was filled wif couples. we were like urgh mane seh nak ddk, couples sana sini doin god noes wad. but in e end we did find a plc to sit n slack for a while. lucky i has hadi's digicam wif me so i snapped a couple of pixies. e scenery was reali pretty. e skyline of e skyscrapers at nite twinklin wif lights is reali a nice view. Earlier in e day met wif ma dear nura who wanted to give me my prezzie. haha n i lurve her prez. pink n black tudung. exactly my 2 fave colours n wad i have been wanting. great now i dun have to waste my own money to buy lol.

aft tt day, rest of e week reali was kinda a blur. tue was lect day as usual so loooong day there. wed, thur n fri was tiring days full of preparations for all e assignments n projs tt we have to get ready for. tv rehearsal yest didnt go too well. i dun tink our grp was prepared enuf. miss hong was like screaming at those in e other room. luckily i was e camera operator in e recording studio so i didnt noe all e hoo-ha tt went on in e other room. haha farhan who was helpin us yest was traumatised cos he didnt noe tt miss hong is such a tiger who shouts instructions n yell at us for making mistakes. i guez he's fortunate cos he got harvey who is less inclined to scream his head off. n all e while i tot harvey is e one who is e one we shoudl watch out for. i juz hope tt on e real day itself on wed, all will go smoothly n well.

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Cant believe im turning 19 tomorrow. i feel so old.Hope i get more prezzies this yr haha.mad faai. anw today gonna get e cake from e cake shop. my mom bought 4 me an ICE CREAM CHOCOLATE cake!! woweee, my 2 Fave things in e world!! YAY!!haha. cant wait to gulp it down.

Have got some idea for e webpage. got some buttons n backgrounds from websites as images so juz gonan put them into dreamweaver. have yet to decide if im doin a journey thingy or portfolio for my WebD proj. actuali i can do either one cos my stuff is mostly abt myself. asked Shan if i can do a journey on myself haha.initially i tot it was kinda narcissitic but he said it was alrite so...lol.but must have enuf content. It can double as either or la cos i can put in all my poems, essays n past works in it n consider it my portfolio or i can say its like a journey of me as e subject of e website. bleah but den it seems like so far all i got r writings n no pixxies. tts y i ask hadi for his digicam so i can snap some pics n say its some of my so-called work.haha wonder if tts ok? aah nvm la.anything to put into e webpage.

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Cant believe im turning 19 tomorrow. i feel so old.Hope i get more prezzies this yr haha.mad faai. anw today gonna get e cake from e cake shop. my mom bought 4 me an ICE CREAM CHOCOLATE cake!! woweee, my 2 Fave things in e world!! YAY!!haha. cant wait to gulp it down.

Have got some idea for e webpage. got some buttons n backgrounds from websites as images so juz gonan put them into dreamweaver. have yet to decide if im doin a journey thingy or portfolio for my WebD proj. actuali i can do either one cos my stuff is mostly abt myself. asked Shan if i can do a journey on myself haha.initially i tot it was kinda narcissitic but he said it was alrite so...lol.but must have enuf content. It can double as either or la cos i can put in all my poems, essays n past works in it n consider it my portfolio or i can say its like a journey of me as e subject of e website. bleah but den it seems like so far all i got r writings n no pixxies. tts y i ask hadi for his digicam so i can snap some pics n say its some of my so-called work.haha wonder if tts ok? aah nvm la.anything to put into e webpage.

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Weird, why issit tt when i log in blogger, there r all these strange lookin boxes n stuff instead of words? nvm lucky im smart enuf to maneuvre thru e site haha.
Anw this is my entry in the new yr. yea2 i noe so lambat, now oredi e 6 of january 2005. no time to blog n i feel soo lazy n busy these days so i cant be bothered. Woohoo finally got to wake up late cos its Friday!!! ya i got no skul on fri. lucky me hehe. the whole wk has been super tiring n hectic.
Mon was the rush to hand in Feat Outline 1. bluek. hope can get at least C for tt lol. yea i noe so ambitious of me rite? but well cannot get my hopes too high up. too bad tt article wont be chosen to be put inside e mag proj cos there were too many of us in e grp doing 'how-tos'.
Tue was of coz lecture day, a loooong long day nuff' said. n we also found out tt e very nx day there is a Comm Issues presentation, tt workshop to conduct, n my grp had done zilch stuff at all! so there we were cursing n swearin tt brian lee didnt warn us earlier. well he said its wk 5,6 or 7 but how were we to noe tt we would all have to do it in wk 5?!
but nvm in e end, it all worked out .we did get an A hehe. e whole class did. yippee! actuali my grp skipped bloody PR juz to finish up our presentation n rehearse n stuff n wad happen mins b4 our class, e laptop juz had to crash. imagine tt?! thank god some kind souls lent us lappys n we got workin n pleaded wif brian lee 4 us to do it last so we can salvage our stuff. lucky we did a backup.whew!
Ok la wanan go eat nw. hungry le.been craving for Mc D breakfast meal since like 4ever. nvr eaten tt since my days in attachment at Changi Airport when i kept eating McD breakfast almost every day b4 work lol.

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