Hmm in a few days' time, it's gonna be 2005 n bubbye 2004.to be honest,I feel nothing at all abt e whole thing. everyone is like i wanna party or sth. but to me,it's juz gonna be like any other normal day on Sat, New Yr's ever. Only now we gonna have to get used to it being 2005 instead of 2004. However, wadever it is, i hope tt 2005 will be a good yr 4 me,both professionally n personally.

Im not gonna make any new yr resolutions cos personally i think it's dumb. Not tt i ever did in the years' past anw. Heck, actually i cant even remember if i did haha. It's ridiculous to make so-called promises to urself tt ure gonna be this or that or ure gonna change for e better or wadever. if ure nt gonna stick to ur resolutions. I noe myself. I dun reali bother wif all these trivialities. I mean, if u reali wanan change for e better n all, why do u have to wait till e new yr? Y cant u do it no matter wad time of e year it is if u reali have ur heart set on changin certain aspects of urself u dun like.

Anw tmr gonna go 4 tt ex-01 BBQ thingy tt eliza is organizing at her place. dunno who are coming tho.but syaz did say tt most of e chi r coming. e mlys im nt too sure cos i dun reali have their nos to begin wif to call them. if they come, good. if not,den nvm la. seok fun was tellin me tt even if she did go, but she's nt cos she got another thing on, she will be scared that there will be awkward meetings all ard cs we have not seen each other for so long, close to 2 yrs i think. mayb more den tt. but well any excuse to go out is gd wif me haha. lately all ive been wanting to do is to merayap. nt like in e past when i juz sit at home n rot lol.

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Got bek from town juz now to do an interview for e Feature article1. decided on a 'how to' article on backpacking. lucky i happen to come across a friend who can help. man he reali is so helpful haha.he was even more enthu abt e thing den me la even tho it is my assignment.giving me tips n all n even offering qns to things tt didnt even cross my mind tt can be included in the article. hopefully my feature article can be gd enuf to put into e mag proj so i can kill 2 birds wif 1 stone lol. tt would make my job soo much easier.

Deadlines:

Comm issues workplan - 31 dec (fri)
Feature article 1 - 3 jan (mon)
Financial stats test -3 jan (mon)

AAARGHHH!!how come suddenly like so many things to do le? sooo sianz...

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Been quite a while since my last entry. been kinda lazy to update. bleah blogging has lost its appeal on me. btw FYI if u guys wanna tag, click on e gossips link at e side to taggie aiight?

Anw lately been getting 2 noe a few guys, all from anakmelayu.com la,this site where ppl make frenz, sorta like friendster only this is kinda mly-based. there have been quite a few tt i duno like half of their names sometimes haha. nt to sound mean or anything but reali i dun remember them. how to? when i onli noe them by like their nicks on e site n even if they told me their real names,i cant remember cs i onli can recall ppl's names n remember them after i meet them or if they r reali super cute or sth in their pics hahaha. gosh i sound like such a bitch but its e truth wad. if i dun remember,i dun remember lor. alrite im digressing.

e point of this entry is tt there's this guy from AM who is like kidna irritating la. i mean he is kinda annoying in e sense tt sometimes i juz wanna roll my eyes. he wants to tok to me on e fone n yet i have to be one who calls him. like wth?!haha. u wanna tok to me n im e one who must call u? wad rubbish. there's idiotic no1. den he juz told me he afraid of gerls. wahahah. i was like in disbelief. like huh?! afraid of gerls? till all ur gal frenz are onli those u tok on e fone,nvr anyone u meet in person. gosh terrified of gals to tt extent. not to sound mean or anything. mayb he does have a prob wif meeting gerls in person. like utter awkwardness n shyness but well, to me even if ure shy, u can overcome tt prob. i mean look at me, i used to be like so anti-guys (in my frenz' words) haha. i dun mix wif guys n they think im like real garang n fierce but now its like almost all ofe new frenz i made are guys n i have no prob interacting wif them. guez poly has brought me outta my shell, so to speak. anw abt this guy, aiyah dun reali have time to layan these kinda ppl. i mean ok la he may have got a prob wif meeting gerls, afraid n all. but i got no time la to try to bring him outta his shell. to tell e honest truth. i suggested to him to go see a psychiatrist or sth to get his prob treated haha. ok ok enuf bitching faai.

Okie another thing i noticed from these guys i gotta noe thru AM is tt somehow already wif 2 of them, its like e very 1st time or 2nd time they tok to me on e fone, already they r telling me their past love lives. i mean i dun reali mind la,kinda open my eyes towards e relationships ups n down tt ppl can go thru since ive nvr actuali experienced them 4 myself. but its like weird la to me cos its like they barely noe me n yet they r sorta baring their soul to me. or mayb they juz takin advantage of me n have me as their listening ear to drown their sorrows in. i dunno. im nt reali bothered by it. it juz seems kinda strange cos i tot tt guys usually keep their probs to themselves. guez i tot wrong. my fren told me tt mayb its gd cos they trust me enuf to open up to me. hmm guez when u look at it tt way. but den if i listen to e paranoid voice in my head, i will think tt they r juz taking advantage of me n dumping their probs n frustration on me. oh well....

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Ok sth scary happened to me over e night. i dunno wad e hell happened but i woke up in e morning n found these angry, stark red scratch marks all over my right arm.
they werent there e previous nite but in e morning, i felt pain on my upper right arm n i looked n saw these scary-looking scratch marks. i was like 'wtf?!' where e heck did they come from?
Dun tell me tt somehow over e nite, i had unconsciously scratched myself till so teruk like tt. n how come i cant even remember it? i mean wouldnt i noe if i had scratched n hurt myself to tt extent. but u noe i think i had a dream over e course of e nite but i cant remember if it was a violent one or not. but i think i kinda recalled feeling this pain on my right arm n when i woke up, there reali was sth there.
It's strange n disturbing cos if its me who did it to myself, den im a bigger enemy to myself than i had thought. i mean if im capable of hurting myself like tt subconsciously in my sleep, den how e hell am i supposed to prevent it from recurring? The other scary thing tt i dun reali wanna think abt is tt wad if its nt me? wad if its some unexplicable reason althogether? ok ok i noe ive entered e realm of merepekness & 'twilight zone' kinda thing but wad if its some ghost or spirit or sth? oh gosh stop it faai. Man u should see e scratch marks. they r so long n red n vicious-looking made by some dunno wad. my fingernails arent tt long tt they can make scratches to that extent.

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Been almost a wk since i blogged. Hmm 1st wk of skul went by quite fast n without any major happenings. nth much to tok abt except tt for this semester's modules, e teachers are all pretty nice (so far hahaha) n e modules r quite interesting n hopefully not too stressful.i juz dun wanna repetition of last sem when it was terribly hectic n bz almost all e time till i got no time for anything else.

Wad r e modules this semester?Hmm there's Public relations, WebDesign,TV prod, Comm issues,Feature writing and e 2 IS modules.

Public Relations aka PR was kinda boring ah to tell e truth. during e tutorial, i can barely keep my eyes open. i dun like e classroom, its nt exactly conducive for learning i think. n tho e lecturer Miss Ang is cool n all (she's a big fan of Linkin Park. didnt reali see her as e tpe to like punk emo rock haha),she's a tad on e dull side when it comes to teaching or mayb its juz me haha.i dunno but i reali felt like fallin asleep during her lesson. But now i noe tt PR is nt juz abt socializing n drinking wif ur clients n lookin pretty n acting fake lol. its waaay more den tt lol.

WebD is alrite i guez altho i was a bit late for class cs i couldnt find it haha. didnt noe where it was cs e door was situated at e side.kinda weird. anw im a lil scared n apprehensive cs well WebD requires me to design a webpage n all.Me n computer softwares dun exactly go along well lol. i need an immensely long time to master Photoshop n wadevr shit tt comes along in desiginin a webpage like flash n all tt. im a slow learner when it comes to things IT-related,let's juz say. well apart from chatting n surfing la, haha tts 2nd nature to me.

TV prod is a class where i need to wear shoes haha. i seldom, if ever wear shoes to skul so it feels strange. haha travis was like 'eh u got shoes meh?'. we need to be silent n wear practical stuff in e tv studio room cs we may need to climb ladders n move soundlessly so no click clocking of heels or unpractical open toed sandals or short mini skirts haha. there seem 2b many things to remember in this class. all e buttons on e cameras n machines. hope i can get used to them.

alrite think im gonna stop nw,tired le rambling on n on haha

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Today was e 1st day of e new skul term. actuali wasnt reali lookin 4ward to it cs well its dec n well its supposed to be e hols ya noe. but well wad to do? thankfully my body clock is attuned to waking up early already due to e 6wks long of attachment when i was supposed to wake up at 530 juz so i can reach changi airport on time.

Hmm so 2day was IS day.i chose e 8-12 time slot cos to me at least aft tt im free for the day n i can either go home to slp or go out aft tt.tue,wed n thur are long days 4 me.bleuk. but lucky fri there's no skul.Yippee!!

For IS, i took Literary works n Understanding financial stats.initially wanted spanish but heard there's like an oral test n there's an expensive bk to buy or sth.anw when i tot of pressing e button for spanish, there were no more vacancies left so literary works it is. e lecturer turned out to be this teacher who taught kin n nura 4 IS tt time i think.kinda cute la,for a teacher haha.nt those old geezers who usually teach IS. n he's quite fun too. haha actuali literary works is like a mini writcomm to me. n the lecturer's name is desmond too lol.jeez wad issit wif desmonds n teaching cheem stuff? we gotta form into grps n do this proj assignment thingy. my grp chose on e Panopticon. im sure this sounds very familiar to masscommies haha. e class was alrite la tho haha guez who's in my class? kuda or dayung sampan! wahahaha. he's weird la,stalker somore. haha me mde this insipid remark. there was a pic of a lobster on e screen la n he said its a scorpion.wahahaha.crap man,i burst out laughing.

Anw yea i forgot to mention tt i went to e wrong building in e morning hahaha.i was supposed to go blk 53 n i went to blk 50.aiyoh.called lisa up cs she said she's oredi in e class n im like huh? how come e classroom looks so dark? lol no wonder la cs i was in e wrong building. jeez 2 mths of nt coming to skul n i forgot which blk is which.

Den aft literary works was e financial stats class. i was kidna sleepy la throughout e class but i told myself to keep awake haha.cos i have to understand e basics 1st,if nt how to make sense of e rest of e crap accounting terms rite? e relief lecturer gave us papers tt contained god noes foreign words tt encapsulate was accounting is all abt,e terms n all. i was like omg this is reali scary lol.nvm slowly. pelan2 kayuh. can understand one.

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WOOHOO!!LAST DAY OF ITP BABAY!!

Finished all my tasks. Finito.Habis.Over.The End.Hahaha

Actuali these last 2 days have been spent doing powerpoint presentations n reports on the Chaos Theory n Tropical cyclones.my sup also one kind.tell me last min.nvm im a fast n efficient worker lol.so yup all done. nt too bad la.r

Tried to understand all tt cheem stuff abt Chaos theory n cyclones. n compile them into powerpoint slides n simplify e lang.apparently e Chaos theory, also known as e Butterfly Effect, came abt becos of this meteorologist.so it's connected to e weather.no wonder la my sup made me do research on it.

Anw in case u guys wanna noe wad e hell is Chaos theory, its sth like there is underlying order in systems/things that may appear random or chaotic. Hmm when i was watching e movie 'The Butterfly Effect', i honestly didn reali understand it.shd have found out more abt chaos theory 1st i suppose haha.

Actuali I think bek when we Masscommers were still stuck in Yr 1 doing writcomm, desmond kon did made us research on Chaos Theory. Bek then, i honestly did not have a clue wad i was reading haha. but nw i do.:p

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YAYYYYYYYYY TAUFIK IS SINGAPORE'S 1ST IDOL!!!!!!!

Baik ah takkan melayu hilang di dunia!! hahaha.i am soooo happy.*does a lil victory dance 4 taufik*

I reached home yest juz in time for SG Idol.oh wow when taufik sang,it juz melted my heart haha.voice power dok.especially tt last song 'me n mrs jones'. tarik suara woohoo best.nasib sak dier menang. kalo sly,betul ah tk tau ape nak ckp.thank god tt didnt happen la.i mean ok la i give credit where it's due n sly was quite gd yest but nt as gd as taufik hehe.

when Gurmit announced e results 'And e Spore Idol is ........ TAUFIK!!!!. wah i think i shouted so loud n whooped 4 joy hahaha.exciting giler.think my whole famly was glued to e tv screen anxiously awaiting e results. n when taufik said 'sayang mak'. awww so sweet.so cute haha.

jeez n to think b4 this i didnt even care abt e local music industry.ok la skang kasi more support la.haha

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i hope i can get e canon digicam...

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