Hmm my hiatus of abt 1 and a half mths had came to an end n im finally blogging again. Skul's out, exams over n done wif (thank god!) but ITP hs juz started a wk ago. crap ass i reali DO NOT LIKE this stupid shit ass thing they call ITP. i mean yea they give us practical work experience n such but aiyah i still dun like it la. n im sooo geram n jeles tt some ppl get to be attached to cool companies n enjoy various privileges n get freebies n stuff while i get wad?zilch, tts wad. well, on e up side, at least im nt e onli one in e boat. i bet there r many masscommies out there who will gladly join e ' I HATE ITP, IT'S E SUCKIEST THING ON E PLANET' club.

aaaah wadevr la, juz cant wait for e freakin 6 wks to be over. i will gladly evn go to skul than to go for itp. ok ah granted i noe im makin itp sounds like it's a fate worse than death but right now it's e bane of my existence. i am soooo exhausted every single work day cos i dun get enuf sleep. come on, i wake up for sahur at like 430am n den i cant sleep cs im scared i may nt wake up in time to go to work. n i usually sleep ard 12 so hw many hrs of sleep do i get? not enuf, tts wad.
i noe a lot of ppl out there can survive on like 3-4 hrs of sleep but im nt one of those ppl. i need my beauty sleep thank u very much. n to make matters worse, if conditions at work r exciting n fun, then at least i wont mind it so much but noooo, i tot tt having itp will at least rid me of my boredom, it has onli piled on to it n i constantly border on the pricipice of go-out-of-my-mind crazy restlessness.

So many things have happened in e past few mths. my grandpa passed away (May Allah bless him). I miss him. It's weird nt to have him ard e hse. Sometimes when i walk along e corridors, i imagine him doing his exercises n sayin hi to me when i reach home. then a pang of nostalgia hits. n i regret it. i regret tt while he was still ard, i didnt even bother to tok much to him cos i was so busy. even in the last few days when he was still at home n he was sick, i didnt even went into his room to ask how he was doing cos i was soo damn busy wif my own work. n i regret tt sometimes when he talked to me, i barely listened without even payin much attention. it brings tears to my eyes right now as im writing this how caught up i was in my own lil life tt i didnt even bother abt anyone else.haizzz...

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 10:23 PM

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WOOOOO IM BACK!!!haah yea as if anyone care la huh?ala dun care ah org tk baca pun ape aku kisah seh haha.skrg ni tgh mendak giler ahh,aiyoh so freakin bored.dah la no on one online who i wanna tok to or can layan me seh.
ni da lama tk blog pun cs got bored of blogging ah.duno hw many freakin times i use e word 'bored' already in this entry haha.jeez n now tt i have started workin at MDS i tot at least ah my hols will be less mundane n boring but noooo,it only adds on to e ever increasing amt of restlessness n boredom i feel.
alrite since i got nth else to do on this sat aftn, im gonna blog abt my 1st wk of ITP which has been kinda sucky so far.for one thing it is freakin FARRRRRRR. and when i say far, i mean from one end of e island of Spore to another. hellloooo,imagine travelling from Bp to Changi every single day of e wk except for weekends? can u juz imagine e horrendous 2 hrs i take to go to n fro from work every day? aiyoh cannot carry siol. of coz i spend a large part of tt 2 hrs either sleeping n dozing off like nobody's business or juz stoning n staring out e windows. if i feel like it, i listen to e radio to help pass e time. and tts juz e journey mind u.i havent even start to whine n complain abt e job aspect yet.
alrite wad exactly do i do at e MDS, u may be askin?well my officer in charge gave me 3 duties to do on e 1st day. so ok ah, 1st one- design the back of their namecard. 2nd - design their brochure for their marketing kit. 3rd - design their brochure to be given to skuls. sth like tt la. initially i was like design their stuff using wad? Photoshop?Aiyoh i was scared le. me n Photoshop or illustrator or flash or any other software design programs yg sewaktu dengannye suma tu mane seh im good at. apprehensive ah at 1st but since im gona be buddy2 n spending so much time using Photoshop during my ITP stint, i might as well get reacquainted wif it. again. cos it's been like eons since i touch tt thing. after my whole webcg module last 2 sems i think. n surprise surprise im beginnin to actuali enjoy myself using Photoshop haha.gosh it's a bit freaky. goin online n tryin out various photoshop tutorials n ooahin n aahin at e effects i manage to magically create using tt program hahaha.
but one thing i tell u, e work mayb ok ah so far but den e place omg its FREEZINGGGGGG.im becomin an ice cube every single day at work n thawin when i go home. it is that cold,i swear its like e freakin arctic or sth. my teeth even chatter. u noe i used to love the cold, i mean i would choose cold over warmth anytime in e past but now its like everytime there is a source of heat anywhere , i grasp on to it for dear life n welcome it wif open arms haha. n this coming from a gerl who hates to sweat. think pretty soon my body's gonna become one wif e cold n i will be a cold blooded creature or sth. n my workin space is nt sth to brag abt either. for one thing , im stuck in a room that is not onli damn cold, its also full wif condemned computer parts. haiyah y put me in a room wif ancient pcs n god noes how old computer bits? they say there was no other room to put us poor interns. bleuk. but e ppl are nice la though i guez to me , a bit on e dull n nerdy side cs i cant imagine workin at a place as mendak n boring as the Meteorological Division Services for goodness sake.
e 1st n 2nd days of ITP was PURE BOREDOM , its almost torturous. i cant stand being in e place tt my fingers were itchin n so i sms like god noes how many freakin ppl juz so i wouldnt go out of my mind crazy to keep myself occupied. i think from this one wk alone my bill will go rocketing sky high la haha. dread to see how much my bill will be.

[[ beauty is in the eyes of the beholder__ 1:17 PM

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