Felt restless n bored n empty in e morning.remnants of wad i felt last nite.but now im a bit cheered up.my parents went to old woodlands to buy some kain for hari raya clothes.n of coz since i was bored,i jumped at e chance.besides i wanted my dad to buy me raya clothes tt r ready made this time n not one that he has to sew.never had raya clothes tt r ready-made.so yay i gotta choose hehe.bought 2.one in dark blue n e other in silvery gray.haha ya so excited rite over pieces of clothing.*rolls eyes*yea anw,tmr a day i am not lookin 4ward to.bleurk.bloody IS day wad else.e pits i tell u.ask any other masscommer n they will tell u e same thing.if there is anything we all have in common,its our common hatred for that insipid modules called IS.

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2day goin out to meet Kin & Syaz after their test at NUH.Syaz kempunan makan long johns haha so ok la, i decide not to fast 2day n follow them eat lunch.den later follow syaz bek to Np to go library to borrow bks for MM.have yet to find e bk sources.but i have done most of e writing for my parts oredi,juz need to put in some quotes from bk sources.hopefully can find e bks cs sometimes lookin 4 bks in libraries r a headache.i can never seem to be able to find em.
think im becoming an insomniac again or sth.had such a hard time going to sleep last nite but mayb it's cos i took an aftn nap but still,i hate tossing n turning b4 i go to bed.finally cant stand it anymore n went to read instead till my eyes grew heavy n i was finally able to go into slumberville.
at times when i cant sleep,i always find myself juz laying in bed thinking of the most ridiculous stuff that i otherwise wouldnt even worry abt.i will start to feel insecure n confuse myself with all my thoughts haphazardly contradicting one another.thank god when in bright daylight,i think clearly n am not conflicted with all tt excess unwanted emotions.

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So long never blog.to tell e truth,blogging has lost its appeal to me.nothing much going on right now.2 weeks break,well at least to me.not to e rest of e NP peepz who r not masscommers tho cos they got to mug 4 tests.thank god all e tests i had were all on tt Mon so freedom, or so i thought.den yest feli told me MM is due on Mon.i was like what?seriously?so tt one had to be done by Mon, of course. wad else?oh ya,advertising.supposed to meet e rest yest for a supposed meeting but of coz,the meeting was very 'fruitful'.y?cos they all came.YEAAA RIIITE.as usual, like last thur,me n elle were there 1st.den mike was like oh u noe wad?i juz realized cck is so far from east coast.like duh.den he suggested an online meeting instead.n feli thinks tt cck is an ulu place which she has no idea how to go to haha.den in e end ,we all ended up having e meeting online on msn.haha aiyoh.lucky i wasnt pissed or anything,make me come all e way for nth.i was onli mildly irritated.but thankfully, we managed to come up wif a brilliant concept n now,all we have to do is take e pix n do e print,tv n radio ad.hopefully all will be done by fri.
as for my personal life,i juz realized sth.i think ive gotten too used to going after guys tt when its e other way around,i turn n run haha.i get scared n try to flee from those guys.n i was sayin to syaz tt i find her behaviour of running away from guys who like her very puzzling when there i was doing e exact same thing lol.i thought abt it n came to a conclusion that when i do pursue e guys i like,it's me who's in control cos i can stop whenever i want to.when i get bored of tt guy,i can always decide not to go after him anymore.but when its e guy doing e chasing,i cant do much to stop him,can i?he may become more persistent n i will avoid him all e more,lazy to entertain his advances.i cannot possibly control him.so i've realized that it's all a matter of control haha.anw i have learnt my lesson from e past.e thrill of e chase is always fun,i guess tts y i like it so much n now im bored cos im nt exactly liking anyone or going aft any guy rite now haha.gosh tt makes me sound so bimbotic.it's nt like tt la.anw time does not exactly permit me to go after cuties much now haha,being so freakin busy n all.

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Yesterday had oredi typed out my bloggie entry but dunno y e page suddenly hang n well,suffice to say,it was all gone la b4 i can publish tt post.lucky i didnt write very much.anw yea yest had 2 icky tests but im juz glad they r all over.probably wont score brilliantly in any one of them.y?cos e financial statement MM test was erm...it wasnt hard i supposed if u has reali gone thru ur tutorial n lecture notes, which i shd have,but i didnt do much of.all i did was to apply e formulas n churn out a reasonable-sounding ans and made some comments at e bottom which i gotta admit mine was pretty crappy but well,juz did wad i could.dun even noe if e numbers im giving r correct or not but i hope i got at least some right,lest bangras thinks i dun even pay attention in class.which sometimes i dun la.but tts beside e point haha.
den e next insipid test of e day came from our 'beloved' IS: sci tech.Why oh why did i ever think tt module is remotely interesting?shit ah,e ppl who wrote down those descriptions in the NP website shd reali be shot cos they purposely lead us to believe that IS modules r even e least bit interesting.man i reali regret la takin sci tech.not onli is e teacher,belinda wadever her name is, is boring as hell but yest she reali got on my nerves.she was like 'bring all ur bags to e front n all my hps too so tt i noe u wont copy'. like wtf,as if it wont be obvious to her if we wanna copy.elle was like 'she shd be grateful that we even bothered to come 4 this stupid test'.hahaha.luckily it was mcq so i juz chose wadever ans tt sounds gd and correct.didnt bother to check.wads e point?its nt as if i studied anw so i probably wont even noe anything.

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The day wif the 2 tests

yea so had e Financial Statements test juz now.did it like haphazardly n like barely knowing wad im doing.all i did was apply e formulas n well churn out some reasonable lookin ans tt i dun even noe is correct or not so no matter hw much i check,it probably wont make much of a difference.juz hope i can pass or juz pass tt test.den icky sci tech test.thank god all mcq.did it in like 20mins.cant be bothered to check or wadever.tt belinda was gettin on my nerves la.ask 2 put all our bags in front la,keep all our hps la.wad rubbish.so wad if we gonna cheat or sth?haha as if it wont be obvious.aiyah anw like i said,does anyone reali give a hoot anw abt tt insipid module?*rolls eyes*

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Yest had my radio test.went quite well even though i very nearly tot i was gonna be late cos i came like right on e dot at 9 when im supposed to start.i was like stuck in this awful traffic jam n was like fuck2 all e way cursing everything from e driver to e traffic lights, urging them to turn green.hopin tt if i stare at them long enuf, i can command them but of coz tough luck.kept lookin agitatedly at my watch n was like fidgeting in my seat.ran all e way from e bus stop to e radio studio n whooshed managed to reach in time.thank god wif like a minute to spare.apologized profusely to mr quek n sat down tryin to compose myself.started my shift panting n was like 'gd morning (pant pant), Im Faaizah (pant).n ure tuning in to Radio Hearwave wif me.haha but it was a reali close call n im so lucky i didnt panic n got at least a B.so grateful to lianne n siyi too who i think went to do e mds for me so all i had to do was to press the on button when i needed to.
mon financial statements test for MM.crap i went into MassComm SPECIFICALLY to escape maths n sciences but nooo,juz had to do it again.when my bro saw my notes, he was like wad?POA?i was like yea unfortunately.pure crap i tell u.at 1st didnt understand a thing la.den when i practise a bit,well i juz hope i can do wadever qns bangras gonna throw at us in e test later.den sci tech,gosh went thru e notes n was like huh?huh?all e way.it was like e whole booklet was in a foreign language n i was like tryin to decipher a code or sth.thank goodness its juz MCQ but still have to make educated guesses la or else juz hantam lor.wad to do.
n yea ad redesign.haha u noe photoshop is nt as hard as i had tot it would be.i managed to do my ad.lucky i had a fren who taught me.if not,i will be still be as clueless.juz hoped tt ziggy will give me at least a C or sth for this assignment.

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At home.skipped ziggy's lesson.havent done my ad redesign.wanted to start last nite but last min stupid pqs had to do.den cramps made me clutch my stomach.hurt so bad so cant concentrate.final result=no photoshop slogging=no ad redesign to show ziggy.so no coming 2 class.
2day MM consultation. 2day SQ stuff to email to beth lee. Tmr radio dalet test.also advertising final draft to show jenny low.havent done nada.discussed but dun reali noe who's doin wad:storyboards,radio,tvc,blah blah blah.Tmr also qc stuff to show tt stupid beth lee.
AAARGH!!

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SOOOOO STRESSED!!i think it juz hit me how exhausted im becoming.my eyes r tired n sometimes red.my body is screaming 4 a massage.my neck and back are aching.i juz realized that my ad redesign is due on next Mon! and i barely start,wait lemme correct tt,i HAVE NOT even started a damn thing yet.im procrastinating i noe but i cant help it.i dunno hw to do Photoshop anymore.nt tt i knew much abt it in e 1st place.wad little i had learnt bek in my grafcom days i have conveniently forgotten n now *sob sob* i have to relearn all over again. I had to inhale a few deep breaths juz now to calm myself cos onli juz now did i noe tt e due date is nx Mon.i tot its like nx thur or sth,nt tt i makes much of a diff but still.n i have to come to ziggy's class on thur to show him n e class wad i had done. n i noee i prob wont do much so either i skip or come to skul wif a piece of crap ass work.bleurk.both nt very exciting prospects.i cant stand it!holidays where art thou?!please come bek,pretty plz

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OK.supposedly having a longer weekend break den usual cos of Nat day n all though honestly i feel no different cos wad wif all e work tt i have to do,it seems e last 2 days have gone by in a whizz.but i did finish wad im supposed to do on my checklist.did my NDP fieldwriting assignment tho its crappy.dunno if ramani will find it a joy to read.most probabaly not,its e most boring article ever.bleurk.was having difficulty tryin to even reach e 350 word count cos my interview was like damn short n didnt get much useful interesting info.kinda invented some lil tidbits to spice it up haha tho i noee im nt supposed to do tt.wad else?yea did my MM oredi.well my part at least,e one on techonological aspect.its a gd thing i still kept my notes from e lit review so i can re-use some of e info.did my radio script in e morning.onli thing worrying me is tt i will freeze n not know which thing to push down or up,when to fade e songs n all tt,timing n what not.but like quek says,DONT Panic.wadevr it is,juz continue so yea hopefully on e day itself,everything goes smoothly.e onli thing ii i HAVE NOT done n dreading to do n therefore my reluctance at starting to even touch on it is my ad redesign.,seriously dun wanna do tt cos well for one thing,i dun wanna touch photoshop.4get how to even work my way thru tt programme.i hate tt ziggy.cant stand him.always goin ard criticizing ppl's ideas.wad e hell does he expect us to do?think of sterlingly creative ideas to shock him wif?come on we r nt professionals,we have onli juz started to wade our way thru advertising.jeez.
2day national day seem no different from any other public holiday.no one seemed to care much abt spore's bday anw.hardly see ppl putting flags outside their windows.

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today some stupid asshole irritated me.i was waiting for bus 920 as usual cos i went home during e 5hr break.den this chinese guy abt 40 yrs old asked me if 960 had passed by e bus stop.so i juz answered his qn la.den proceeded to mind my own business.but did he do the same?NOOOO.he juz had to ask some insipid qns,bloody annoying fucker.1st he kaypo commented on my eye which was a lil red.sayin oh ur eye red ah,u shd take care if not may go blind.i was like 'polite smile n yea ok'.den as if pointing out e obvious was nt enuf,he said oh mayb u are allergic to ur saline solution or ur contacts.wah nvr find someone so freakin kaypoh b4,like some makcik or nonya.den aft tt he proceeded to insult me when he asked if i was a malaysian.in my mind,i was like WTF,i look like a malaysian?nt tt i have anything agst msians.juz tt when i told him im a singaporean,he was like oh u noe cos i wear tudung so tt automatically makes me a freakin malaysian in his eyes?wad e bloody crap is tt?i gritted my teeth n said to him 'wad,juz cos i wear tudung,i cant be singaporean meh?'n he was like oh cos its not prayers mah n well i seldom see singaporeans wear tudung.wa lao never before in my entire life have i ever come across such an insipid bloody piece of moron who is so freakin ignorant,it's disgusting.n aft tt he had e cheek to ask somore if im PR.i was like helo,i told u im singaporean,u stupid ass,tho i didnt say e last part out loud.fuck man,stay in spore so long n still e thinking like some ulu piece of shit.aft tt i refused to layan tt piece of irritating dickhead n ignored him.wad e hell?wanna make small tok also touch on stupid dumbass topics tt onli annoy e hell outta me.annoyin asshole

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juz now suddenly i feel like eating so much,like a glutton.had a nap.woke up n 1st thing on my mind was FOOD.n i wasnt even hungry actuali.i juz felt like i had to fill my stomach with sth.went ard e hse n kitchen looking 4 anything edible haha.from sweet stuff,i began to think abt spicy foodies next hehe.yea i noe,im crazy.i sooo wanna gain weight but sometimes i dun reali feel like eating cos well,the food at home's not so nice.ok i better stop it now.im juz babbling nonsense haha.
nothing interesting to blog abt la.well mayb i do but suddenly when im sitting here writing,my mind's a blank.oh well...

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