Life is a Road

Life is a road.
A very long road.

You have your wanderers,
Not certain of where they are,
Or where they are going.

You have your adventurers,
Out looking for excitement.

You have your explorers,
Yearning to learn,
Wanting to discover.

You have your lazy cheats,
Not willing to walk the road themselves.
Spending their time looking for a cheat,
a way out.
Trying to take shortcuts,
and never making it to the end.

And you have your villains,
With whom somewhere something
went wrong in their lives.
They’re out to ruin everything,
To take away the joy,
excitement,
and all the happiness.
To prevent people from experiencing
the joyfulness of the journey,
And from finding out
what wonderfulness waits at the end.

Life is a very long road.
Who are you?

I tot tt was a pretty nice poem.found it somewhere haha.it's not me who wrote it. i wish, lol.anw it's kind of food 4 thought.

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YIPPEEEEE!!!!!hahaha.i noe im mad but finally no more studyin or project work 4 this year.juz now was my only exam medisoc.i dunno if i can do reali well on it but i dun think im gonna fail.i hope not.i mean sure there were some qns i didnt noe how 2 ans n the essay qn at the end cos i didnt have enuf time i crapped my way through but hopefully will get ok results.but no use worryin abt it now.over n done with.
anw got my results 4 final speech.got a C+.a lil disappointed but hey at least tts an improvement from my previous disaster of a speech.i think my overall grade 4 this module is gonna be like a C or D.haha.pretty discouraging but oh well.
yea later muz email Millians to find out my lvp result 4 the test tt time.hope can get at least an overall grade of B for lvp.
as for my other modules like grafcom n sab,well i juz wanna pass everything n NOT have to repeat anything nx yr.n i better not repeat pe cos i freakin hate tt thing.
ok enuf abt skul haha.my freedom has officially begin lol.

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yest didnt update my blog.lazy la.anw nothin to write abt.
tmr is exam day n then freedom awaits.yippee!!haha.anw yest got bek the medisoc project results n we got a B.yea so happy.at last one project got at least a reasonable grade lol.unlike other projects.bleurgh.this one me n my grp slog over 4 mths,counting stupid ads in mags haha.
tmr apart from goin 2 skul 4 exam,gonna bombard some lecturers 4 our grades 4 assignment n test.speech com n lvp respectively lol.hope can get an average of C for these 2 modules.
yea n i change my blog skin again haha.from an angel to a hunk to now a chocolate skin lo.yea i get bored easily la hehe

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went out wif syaz,kin n nura juz now.1st went to this fashion at kranji.no particular piece of clothing screamed at me 4 me 2 buy it haha so walked out of there empty handed.anw later went 2 CP n went ard the shops.n we finally took a neoprint of all of us 2gether.yea but too bad we didnt reali noe how 2 operate the damn machine tt was kinda freaky haha.anw ended up wif some nice pics although there was 2 i didnt like,one wif only half my face n the other wif my eyes closed lol.but now the pics still wif kin who brought them home to scan.
yea didnt study much 2day hehe.only read a bit of the bk juz now.mayb if im too bored online i will resume studyin haha.ye la bdk baik katekan.ive juz realized its oredi tue n my exam's like 2 days away.n i still act like its a long time to come lol.

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had a hard time sleepin last nite.mayb cos i oredi slept a bit in the aftn.anw since i couldnt sleep,i lay awake in bed thinkin bek on all the stuff tts been happening to me the last 3mths since i entered poly.have to say life in poly is NOT dull haha.more interesting things have happened to me these past 3mths than all my 4yrs in sec skul.
made new frens,kept old ones,learned new stuff,basically a whole emotional roller coaster ride.i found myself swingin from being happy one moment to being depressed the next.but there were more depressive moments actuali haha.
ive changed a lot too both on the outside n the inside.
Change is the only constant thing in life.pretty ironic rite the statement?those ard me too have changed,not tt its such a bad thing cos if things always stay the same,life will be kinda boring.n since ive always complained abt my life being boring,i shd be rejoicing now rite tt my life has a bit more spice to it,to say the least lol.
also ive learned quite a few lessons in life,or more accurately love,things tt they dun teach u in skul haha.
now learning not to trust ppl's words so much,except 4 those ppl who im reali close to n know that they r tellin the truth.i admit tt ive nvr been some1 who trust ppl,especially the opposite sex but sometimes i think i 4get n tts when i open myself up to gettin hurt.a recent event tt happened only strengthen my belief.in the past,i would still have been angry at the person 4 having wronged me but surprisingly,ive learned to let things go n not to let it bother me so much.mayb i am growing up haha.

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juz watched smallville episode 1 of season3.haha yea i noe im bad.i download it from net la wad else.but at least now i noe wad happen instead of having to wait hehe.
anw in the aftn did some spring cleaning.also had a 2hr nap.been nappin a lot these few days to catch up on the zzz.
yea tmr is the mth of Ramadhan.to all the Muslims,happy fasting & Selamat menyambut Ramadhan.so muz remind myself to work on my laser mouth haha.cos knowing me,tts gonna be the hardest thing but i will try my best.
its oredi the start of the hols so no more skul except on fri 4 exam n tts it.tokin abt exam,started learning but of coz not done yet la.juz skim the notes over the weekend but didnt reali go into them thoroughly.
yea n i changed my blog skin.tell me wad u guys think abt it ya?i noe u guys muz be thinkin:faaizah,u chose pink?i tot u hated pink.lol.yea but i kinda like the pic of the guy n i think pink goes nice wif black haha.

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okay im like so freakin bored now,tts y im postin an entry haha.nowadays i get easily bored when im online.besides chattin n a bit of surfin,theres not much to do.n within an hr,i'll be so bored im beggin some1 to entertain me haha.
anw not much goin on in my life right now.also pretty dull .can use a lil excitement hehe.but muz study 4 exam on fri den yippee can enjoy .although not much la cos probably be kinda lethargic n lazy cos fastin n all.nvm wont let tt stop me.hehe.yea started studyin juz now,the basics la.at least touch the notes lol.but read also la,kk i noe im lame haha.
probably gonna change my blog skin if im so damn bored haha.but yea see 1st

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haha actuali i had wanted 2 start studyin 4 exam yest but of coz i didnt do it.delay2 watchin tv,tokin on the fone wif syaz for like 2hrs haha,which was great cos it's been a long time since we did tt n then goin online till i tot ah!wad the heck,study tmr la,meanin today la lol.
anw had wanted to go shoppin today but no one seem to be free.:(,so sad haha.nvm after exam,me n my girlfrens gonna shop till we drop lol.provided we got enuf moolah tt is haha.(in case some of u dunno,moolah means $$ hehe)
yea wad else?me now online doin some research 4 exam cos one of the exam's qn gonna be on reality tv so doin some research on tt.it's been so long tt i reali studied 4 an exam tt i think i've forgotten how to study haha.cos my coz is like always projects n more projects so there's not reali been an exam.the last time i reali studied 4 an exam was O levels last yr la lol.
yea muz remind myself 2day tt i have to start studyin n not procrastinate any longer cos it's like only 6days left.

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well 2day's deepavali.feelin pretty bored actuali.no shows now in the morning.mayb in the aftn gonna watch tv.n nite mayb do a lil studyin.i always feel like it's a sunday when it's like a public hol cos it's the only time my parents r at home.i prefer it to be juz like a normal day cos when my parents r at home,dun reali feel much freedom cos my mom will usually be askin me to do household chores n i'll be like so not in the mood u noe lol.anw now im rarely at home cos i'll reach home late cos of skul n everything.but since nx wk is like the hols oredi,i'll be spending more time at home though i'd probably go out so i wont be bored stiff.
plan to indulge in some retail theraphy like mayb buy some new clothes cos i notice ive been wearin the same clothes haha.but my savings r like fast dwindling so mayb need to be thrifty.
plan to do a lot of fun stuff durin the hols cos i have to make the best use of this time b4 skul starts again n i'll be like too freakin bz to do much except more projects n assignments.
i noe many of my frens plan to work n all during hols but to tell the truth i dun think im gonna do tt.i want the money la but im too lazy to work 4 it haha.but who noes,mayb i'd change my mind.
alritey,feel free to tag ur comments k.ciao!

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woke up from a 2hr nap juz now.n now got a headache.
its been quite a while since i get to sleep in the afternoon cos usually i'd be in skul.juz now the kids screaming downstairs were realli irritating, they were yellin their heads off.no wonder i woke up n i tot it was like the nx day oredi n i was late 4 skul or sth haha.ya la i mean blur2,havent reali woken up fully wad.
anw been thinkin abt my situation wif BABI. I'd ask myself this qn ' did i like him juz cos of his looks n now tt i noe his true colours,he dont appeal to me anymore?'
am i tt shallow?but then again,looks r important to many ppl,whether we want to admit it or not. i mean u have to be physically attracted to someone b4 u want 2 get to noe him/her better rite?i'll be the 1st to admit tt looks r the 1st thing i 'look' at when i see a guy.4give the pun haha.but i think tt once u noe some1 n his/her character dun match their outward appearance,u'll begin to realize tt of coz,at 1st glance,u tend to give importance to looks but in the long run,it reali doesnt matter much.
u noe later mayb im gonna put a tagboard or sth 4 u guys to post ur comments abt this lol.juz have to make sure i dun screw the whole thing up like b4 when i had initially put a tagboard n all went haywire hehe.

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yea juz got bek from skul.had speechcomm from 9-11 juz now.anw had mine yest so came to skul juz to see my frens' presentations.today is like the last day of the semester so yea!can finally catch some zzz tt i reali need.
anw got bek my speech test,ok la got B so not bad.
den yea have to start studyin 4 medisoc exam nx fri n after tt,can enjoy.during hols muz do fun stuff, if not damn boring haha.anw work 1st,den enjoy later lol.

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yea i had my speech presentation juz now.it went pretty good i think.definitely a marked improvement from my earlier disaster of a speech assignment.hope to get at least a C for tt one,at least la.but of coz i want higher grade la lol.
yea!so happy today.last assignment over 4 the semester. n pe also done.AT LAST!!haha.no more having to bring tt racket to skul n sweatin.
u noe i feel mixed feelings.like sad cos some lessons endin n can no more see my fave teachers like Millians n Pat Wong.but relieved tt all major stuff r over except 4 medisoc exam nx wk.but also reali happy tt skul is ending so i can get the much needed rest tt im severely been deprived of these past few weeks.

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ok timecheck 7:31am.today is last assignment 4 this semester.Speech the final project.
after tt,yea!free!okla not reali cos have medisoc exam but at least tt one can study n worry later.cant wait 4 hols n get the rest tt i have been sorely lackin due to the gazillions of projects tt i seem to have.cant believe tt tmr is gonna be like the so called last day of skul.cos fri deepavali.3mths passed by in a blink of an eye it seems.
oh well juz hope n pray i got to do my best 4 today's speech n get it over n done wif.

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okie me now doin preparation 4 speech.i think i da fix my blog now la but not sure leh haha.i remove the tag board tt was the cause of all the trouble.anw tmr i got speech,my topic is diferences btw men n women.shd be interesting huh?found out quite a lot of things i nvr knew like men' skulls r thicker n stronger than women.no wonder they say men r 'thick-headed' creatures lol.
hope i can get at least a C for this speech cos any grade will be better den my last one.
anw i juz wanna get it over n done wif n Insya Allah get a good enuf grade.
alritey gonna concentrate on speech now.

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aaargh!!still tryin to figure out how to fix my blog.i put a tag board in n now everything go haywire.tts y im a computer idiot lol.haiz, nvm later i ask ppl.

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i noe ive been swearing a lot nowadays compared 2 bek then.gues its an outlet 4 all my stress n frustration.to quote wad my close fren said,now all the bad words i say are 'free-flowing' haha.
n the weird thing is guys i tok to ask me to stop cursing lol.but my girl friends dun say anything abt it.like isnt it supposed to be the other way round?haha.find tt a lil amusing.
well i noe i got to stop cursing but muz take it one step at a time la.takkan nak go cold turkey tiba2 kan haha.
anw the fasting mth is comin so i have to learn to watch my mouth.
one of my flaws is tt i talk b4 i speak.i say things tt are kinda rude but the thing is i like doing it,mostly to see how ppl will react. syaz told me tt she gets kinda scared when she's wif me n i say out loud wadever i think,like talking bek to a teacher or sth,bek in sec skul.mayb tts the thrill of it.haha

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juz got bek from skul.did editing juz now.finally finished the whole thing.quite happy wif the resullts hehe.even called syaza n shikin to com watch the film.they were laughin when they saw me in the club scene,a minah tudung suddenly dancing over there haha.ye la how i noe how to dance rite?but since there were so few ppl i got to go in the shot too la.look so stupid haha.
anw juz now told syaz all abt tt BABI.haha those close to me will know wad tt stands for.relate the whole story to her and she's like so pissed off for me la which is good cos i myself was mad when i told bek the thing,recalling all the details of tt stupid conversation.
i mean tt guy is like the most fucked up guy tt ive ever known all my life. seriously he has a bigger ego than i tot.n he had the cheek to make me feel like im the bad guy.phooey! to hell wif him.
from now on i hope tt i dun see him anymore ever.n since skul is closing in like a wk,i have no worries.
anw i sure as hell wont ever contact him again n he wont give a damn abt me either. so either way i am free from tt asshole.

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well it's early in the morning ard 7am now n its raining already.kinda suit my mood nowadays.more depressed than happy.gotta go to skul today at 9 to do editing.i have to come early cos im the producer n im the one wif the video bucks.sigh,wish could have gotten more hours of zzz.
anw at least today can kill 2 birds wif 1 stone:do editing n speech at the same time.btw juz posted my latest poem at fictionpress.got an inspiration to write last night.scribbled down the poem b4 i went to sleep.
it's funny how depression and angst always inspire me to write.gues tts juz one of the many ironies.
tot of goin 4 the pe makeup lesson 2day but its at 8 n i got to go editing room at 9 so tt makes it impossible.anw i dun reali give a damn abt pe.i'll worry abt wad excuse im gonna give later.
oritey,tts abt it 4 now.gtg n eat n get ready 4 skul.

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well the whole stupid episode is over now.i was so freakin pissed yesterday n was ranting n cursing becoz of 1 asshole of a guy.juz prove to me wad i have known all along: GUYS R NOT 2B TRUSTED.EVER!!
I dun even noe wad possessed me to open my heart when i have always been cynical abt love.tts y im the lovecynic.but now i noe better n im not gonna let any guy play me 4 a fool anymore.no freakin way!
from now on,im gonna follow wad my close fren told me to do.Flirt wif all the guys i want but never let anyone near my heart cos i'll only get burnt.

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went to JB juz now.havent been there 4 so long. mayb 10 yrs almost. tot i'd 4get abt my work n troubles 4 a while n juz get out of the house lol.
anw let's juz say JB is not exactly my cup of tea. I wouldnt go there again in the near future. juz dun reali like the place.den on the way home on the bus,it was so crowded so no place to sit. anw i was kinda sleepy waiting 4 the freakin bus to move in the traffic jam tt i almost fell asleep while standing haha.couldnt keep my eyes open.

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Haha these r some cute poems 4 girls yea.
Enjoy girls...guys right now im not particularly in the mood to care for their feelings lol.

Guys are like roses,
watch out for those pricks

God Made men first because a rough draft
is always necessary for a masterpiece

he broke my heart, so i broke his jaw

ITS A GURLS WORLD AND GUYS JUST LIVE IN IT!

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yea!!im so glad this week is finally over. all my main projects r done n im freeeee,well not exactly there's still speech to do on wed n the medisoc exam at the end of the mth but like tt one can worry later la lol.
but weird thing is i had expected to jump 4 joy on fri when my grp presented the bauhaus thing but i didnt feel anything actuali.juz numb i gues. like i was wondering wad if if i fail grafcom n need to repeat the module nx yr.
it would be so fuckin stupid la. i mean i hate the module 4 goodness sake. dunno wad choy is tokin abt most of the time.n my grades 4 most of the independent assignments 4 grafcom sux somore.tts y i wanna do well or at least reasonably ok 4 this final project but not much hope la now.but wadevr,the whole damn thing over n done wif.

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well my 1st time writing this.all of my frens seem to be doin this so i decide to give it a try. wanna get into the trend la haha.anw yea tts abt it 4 now....

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